The Dawn Is On Us

C H A P T E R 3 4

After Mustafa had ensured Raees was well settled, he went towards his bedroom. Greeted with the sight of Hoor crying. She was sitting on her prayer mat. The moonlight shining onto her chadar. Her tears dropped like diamonds raining from the sky. Her pink rosy lips quivering as she complained to her Lord. Her slender fingers capturing her cheeks as she tried to silence her sobs. Mustafa felt his heart shudder. It clenched tightly as he thought about how much he and Raees had hurt her.

"Mustafa sahab ajain kapray badal lei," the male nurse entered from behind.
He wheeled him into the bathroom, not even waiting for his reply. By the time he had exited, Hoor was already in bed, with eyes closed tightly. Dead giveaway of the fact that she was faking being asleep.

The nurse mechanically laid him in bed, exiting without a single glance. Mustafa sighed, he did not want Hoor to sleep upset with him. His mother and father used to tell him that. No matter what, do not go to sleep angry with someone. After all one knows nothing about life and death. And its better to resolve matters than to feel guilty.

"Hoor?" Mustafa asked, not sure whether she would answer or not.
"Ji?" Shd gave a one word reply.
"Meri taraf dekho," he told her.
Hoor, wanted nothing more than to ignore him, unfortunately, her body did not want to listen to her, as she turned to face him, unwilling.
"Bolein?" She tried to be polite.
Already at her wits end.
"Hoor aj jo bhi huwa, mei uskay liye maafi mangta hu. Mera aur Raees ka koi irada nahi tha tumhe dukh denay ka. Woh to bad anjany mei-"
Hoor cut him off, "anjanay mei ap dono nai mujhe meri hi nazron mei gira dia. Kaise ap dono lage huway thay far far angreezi bolnay mei. Aur jo mujhe parhne keh liye kaghaz dia? Ap mera mazak uranae keh liye leh kar gaye thay?" Hoor asked him.
Even she had no idea from where she had gotten the courage to confront him.

"Dekho Hoor, meri baat suno. Hum nai jaan bhuj kar nahi kia. Ghalti ho jati hai. Sabse hoti hai. Raees aur mujh sai bhi ho gai. Humein aadat nahi hai apnay saath kisi aur ko le kar jaane ki," he tried to explain.
Truly, Raees and he had no intentions of not paying attention to her.
"Kia matlab kisi aur. Biwi hun mei aapki. Mujhe kaise bhul gai?" She asked baffled.
Mustafa looked at her in silence. He did not want to hurt her with the truth of the fact that she had seldom acted like his wife.

"Chup kyun ho gai? Sach sunnay ki himmat nahi ap mei? Ap par bhi mei bhoj hun?" She began making assumptions.
Mustafa pinched his nose, counting to ten. Remembering that being patient was important.
"Jawab dein mujhe!" Hoor shrieked like a mad woman.
These past few weeks had been nothing but cruel to her. She had been tossed around like a rag doll. No one had care about her. Tying her in an unwanted marriage.

"Hoor dekho, tum meri biwi ho isiliye mei tumse larai nahi karna chahta," Mustafa give his answer.
"Kaash keh mujhe meray maa baap nai ghar sai nikal diya hota par apse nai mera nikkah kiya hota!" She spoke utter venom.
Not realising how much she hurt him in her state of anger.

"Sach sunna hai? Tou phir suno! Humari shaadi ko 4 din ho gai. Aaj tak tou tumne mujh sai biwi wala salook nahi kia. Har waqt apne dukh mei gum rehti ho! Shaid yeh bhul chuki ho keh mei bhi majboor ho gaya tha iss shaadi keh liye. Woh tou mera dil pagal hai jo tumse mohabbat karta hai. Tumhei dukh nahi de sakta. Hoor mei puri duniya sai iss cheez ki tawakou rakhta tha keh woh mujhe mazoori ka taana de gi. Par tumse nahi. Denay ko mei bhi keh sakta hun keh meray jaise baray businessman par kia nobat thi jo tum jaise anparh sai shaadi karli? Hoor tum har waqt khuda sai gila karti ho. Tumhari aankhon mein apnay liye nafrat mei roz dekhta hun. Kaash tum bhi meray sai mohabbat karti. Par afsoos khuda nai meray naseeb mei sirf nafrat hi likhi!" He spoke to her, saying everything about his feelings.

He closed his eyes, trying to sleep, praying for the first time in a while, for his wife to stop hurting him. And loving him like he loved her.

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AUTHORS NOTE

PLS DONT KILL ME 😤🔪💀