Remnants of Our Drowned Love

Chapter 44

"Asikasuhin ko na si Zef, Kuya."

"Okay sis, love you."

"Take care."

"Baka sila ang mag-ingat sa akin, Rue." Wala na 'tong magandang sasabihin.

Saktong pinatay ko ang tawag ni Kuya Yael nang tawagin ako ni Zefidy.

"Mom? Paano po ba 'to ilalagay?"

I walked towards where she was, hawak niya ang necktie para sa sinuot niyang uniform. She's grade one now, trying to learn more things that she was curious with.

"Here, sundan mo si mommy, ah?" 

Zef smiled and eagerly nodded, I almost melt right there.

Inalis ko ang kakalagay ko lang na necktie ko at step by step na tinuruan ko ito, we we're chuckling every now and then until she gets a grasp on how to do it.

Sometimes, I'm afraid that I couldn't taught her things properly and most of the time I'm worried sick, what if I couldn't raise her well? I'm not good with kids, hindi ko forte ang mag-alaga ng bata kaya halos sakalin ako ni Henry nang mabalitaang nag-ampon ako.

Mahirap nga, but you'll eventually learn how to handle kids, gugustuhin mong matuto for them.

"Susunduin kita later okay?"

She hummed because apparently her mouth is too full to utter a word, paborito niya ang sinangag, itlog at hotdogs but today is not for hotdogs kaya spam ang niluto ko.

Lagi kong sinisiguradong alam niya na ako ang susundo sa kaniya dahil baka mamaya ay may ibang sumundo na hindi naman talaga niya kilala at sabihing pinapasundo ko although hindi naman sila pinapalabas until masundo sila mismo ng parents.

I was waiting for her to finish brushing her teeth when someone rings our doorbell.

Nagtaka ako, once in a blue moon lang kung kumatok sa pintuan ko.

P

agkatingin ko sa monitor ay hindi ko inaasahang makita si Olie roon. It's just 8am, too early for her to be here.

"You didn't message me for heads up."

I crossed my arms infront of her. She's wearing a cargo pants, white running shoes and black sleeveless hoodie, nakasuot pa sa tenga ang airpods

"You're always ready for me tho, I couldn't think of an important reason for heads-up." Olie playfully wiggled her eyebrows to tease me. "Joke lang, I will next time, napadaan lang naman ako because I went for a jog — nagmamadali ka?"

I shook my head and gladly let her in, kung gusto niya nga ay 'wag na siyang lumabas pa rito.

"Then why is this?" Turo niya samay dibdib ko.

Necktie pala ang tinuturo niya, medyo loose kasi ito dahil nga tinuturo ko kanina kay Zef kung paano mag-ayos ng necktie.

Olie started to fix it, nakatitig lang ako sa kaniya hindi pa rin makapaniwala na nandito siya ngayon. Yesterday was mind blowing, lumipad ng todo ang utak ko at tanging si Olie nalang ang kilala that time.

I felt her hand smoothening my white polo.

"Hindi pa ako nakakapag-propose ng maayos kaya hindi ako pwedeng matunaw sa tingin mo, Yvan."