His Story To Tell (R-18)

HSTT - 85

My body feels so heavy. Parang may kung anong nakadagan sa akin at hindi ko ito maigalaw. Ni hindi ko rin ito maramdaman. Unti unti kong minulat ang mga mata ko at pinikit ko ito muli dahil sobrang labo nang nakikita ko.

"The f-fuck?" I cursed.

I tried to open my eyes again and I waited for my vision to be clearer. I looked around at puro itim ang nakikita ko. Nasaan nanaman ba ako? Tsaka bakit ganito ang kwarto na 'to? Hindi 'to hospital malamang.

"Ryoga." Dinig kong bulong ng isang lalaki.

I looked at the other side and I saw Ryutaka. Ang tatay namin ni Ryoga. Bakit nandirito siya at kasama ko? Sinubukan ko ulit na galawin ang katawan ko pero hindi ko magawa.

"Huwag mong pilitin. You're still recovering." He said and he walked towards me.

Inayos niya ang wire ng dextrose na nakakabit sa akin na ngayon ko lang napansin. I even have something on my nose. Ano 'to?!

"A-anong nangyari? B-bakit ako nandirito? W-wala na d-dapat ako." I whispered. I couldn't even talk properly.

"Can't you remember? You and Luke almost died."

"H-huh? I d-don't know what y-you're talking about."

Ako at si Luke? Kailan nangyari 'yon? Wala akong maalala.

"Are you Ryoga?" He asked and he moved towards me. Umupo siya sa kama at sinulyapan ang mukha ko.

"You are Yoshikawa." Umiiling na sagot niya sa sariling tanong nito. "Where is he? Where is Ryoga?"

"I-I don't know."

I don't know why am I even here again. Hindi na dapat ako nandirito because he was healing. He was already overcoming all of the insecurities that he has. But what am I doing here again?

"Si Arah. W-where is Arah?" I whispered and I closed my eyes when I felt a deep pain in my chest. Sobrang sakit nito na para ba akong pinapatay sa sakit. Tanginang Ryoga. May sumaksak ba sakaniya?

"Stop talking. You're bleeding." He said at mabilis siyang kumuha nang kung anong gamit at inalis ang nakatakip sa may dibdib ko.

Ano bang ginawa ni Ryoga at nagkaganito ang katawan niya?! Fuck! I am the one who is feeling the pain! It's too painful!

"Ryoga and Luke fought with the councils. They saved Lucia. They were trapped inside that's why." Walang emosyon na sabi niya habang nililinis ang sugat ko.

"I am happy even if it's you who woke up first. That only means that his body can fight all these wounds that he got."

"I s-should've disappeared. I c-can't go back to his life anymore."

Dahil kung nandirito pa rin ako, ibig sabihin non ay hindi pa rin siya gumagaling.

"Maybe the reason why you were here was the fact that he got emotional that day."

Emotional? May dramahan bang nangyari?

"You appeared because of Ryoga's problems in his life. His terrible childhood, our family, my relationship with him, when my wife died in front of him, the incident at Raine's house, Jowana being killed, his identity, he hates his self."

Alam kong ayaw ni Ryoga sa sarili niya. At palagay ko'y kaya unti unti akong nawawala noon ay dahil unti unti niya nang tinatanggap kung sino talaga siya. He wanted another identity, he wanted to live a life not being Ryoga. And that is one of the reasons why I am here. It is not because of Jowana only. But it's because of his desires to change his life and personality.