Negative Law Of Attraction

Chapter 15

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I didn't expect my first trip to London to be as sad as it was, i hoped i could spend it full of fun, but i was still in mourning. I kept my eyes closed and hoped this was all a dream and i was here in London for Brett and Liz's wedding. But when i opened them nothing had changed my parents were still sad and my brother kept quiet. 

Brett arrived in his luckily five seater car, my parents shared a suitcase, so we only had three suitcases to cram in the boot. I shotgun the passenger seat again, then we were off to his apartment. The whole car ride was quiet besides when we said hello.

"I've only got one spare room so" Brett trailed off.

"Oh that's fine! Mark and I have already booked in to a hotel not to far" My mum smiled, sadness burried in her eyes. 

Brett nodded. "Okay, Jake and Ave can sleep here"

We all agreed and as Brett and my parents sat down to talk, i knew what it was going to be about so i turned around and started to unpack in the spare room. I took some clothes out and folded them neatly in the top draw of the dresser, but i left some clothes in my suitcase. After some time there was a knock on the door and i turned to see it was Brett. I walked over to him and hugged him, tears sprung to my eyes while he hugged me back. 

"You're going to make me cry" Brett scolded trying to make it sound like he was joking. 

"I'm so sorry Brett" I wiped the tears that fell.

"I am too, damn i was crying all night, i couldn't help myself, i just can't believe it" He shook his head.

"She was so innocent i didn't expect it to happen to her" I agreed, we both sat down on the bed.

"Liz was everything and more to me, she was so beautiful, amazing, caring" Brett trailed off like he did earlier.

"I know, i miss her like crazy we used to do everything together" I said as memories came flooding back.

"How's school?" Brett asked going completely off topic, though i'm glad he did.

"Shit" I laughed. "How's work?"

"They gave me two weeks off" He shrugged.

"Well that's good, you get to have a break" I nodded.

"Yeah true" He nodded to. "Anyway i'll leave you to pack, i'll call you when dinners ready" He got up from the bed.

"Um i think i might skip it tonight" I looked at him.

"I understand, there's food in the kitchen for when you get hungry" He smiled.

"Thanks Brett" I smiled. He walked out of the room, i quickly got changed into my pj's which was just an oversized t-shirt and shorts. I switched the light off and climbed into the king sized bed. I felt tired but not tired enough to fall asleep just yet so i pulled out my iphone and started to play games. My eyes started to burn from the light on my phone so i turned it off and put it on the bedside table. I turned to the side, put my hand under the pillow and drifted off not long after.

"Ave wake up, you got to get ready" Someone was softly shaking me. I woke up and rolled onto my back.

"What's the time?" I asked groggily, i sat up and looked at Jake.

"9:30, you had a massive sleep in" He chuckled.

I rolled my eyes and got out of bed. I grabbed the clothes i was wearing to the funeral which was a black dress the reached to just above my knees, black tights and black flats. I said a quick good morning to Brett when i passed by to go to the the bathroom. 

I stepped out of the shower now refreshed. I wrapped the towel around my body and brushed my teeth, then dried myself off before putting my clothes on. I thought about what would happen today, i asked to do a speech and my wish was granted, a note was folded on top of my dress. On it was my writing, it had the words i was going to say in front of my friends, family and some people i wouldn't know. 

"Let's go Ave!" Brett called out from the lounge room.

I quickly went and grabbed my small purse with money, my phone and i tucked the note inside it to. Jake gave me a sad smile as we walked out. We were going to pick up my parents from the hotel then drive to the church where the funeral will take place then straight after the burial service.

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"My cousin Liz, was my favorite cousin, i remember when we were younger we would do everything together. She had taught me so many things, so many lessons i needed and need for the future. Liz was important to me and even though she" I paused wiping a tear. "Even though she's gone now, she will still be in my heart forever and always. Liz was that one person i could turn to in times of trouble, or if i wanted to ask something. We had fun together doing anything that would make us laugh. Like she understood me, i understood her we were inseparable to most. Liz was the most innocent girl i've met, her innocence made me look like a criminal it was so strong. It's hard to believe something like this would happen to my cousin. My family and I were coming here to London to attend Liz and Brett's wedding, we both promised to be maids of honor at each others wedding. It's sad to say we won't be able to do fulfill it. Liz was the most beautiful girl and she will stay in all our hearts forever and always. I don't want to say good bye but i have to so good bye Liz i love you" My voice broke in the last sentence and i stepped down and went back to sit next to my brother who wrapped an arm around me reassuringly.

The funeral ended and it was time for the few people to carry my cousin out to her burial site, Jake, Brett her father, my father, her friend Ryan and our cousin Jesse were going to carry her. While i offered to stand in front and lead them out. 

Before they carried her out they let us say our final goodbye's to Liz. She had an open lid funeral so the whole time i looked at her pale, but still beautiful body. I walked over when everyone but the boys had moved outside to gather around where she was to be buried. 

I kneeled infront of her and tears escaped my eyes. I picked up her hand gently afraid she would disappear, her hand was cold and i tried despretely to warm it. "I wish you didn't leave so soon Liz" I cried. "I miss you so much, you will stay in my heart, i'll always remember you, i love you so much" My lips trembled. I stood up and leant down to kiss her on her forehead. Before i walked away i looked at her for the last time. Her blonde hair was sprawled around her in natural curls, her green eyes were closed so he long lashes coated in mascara were visible. We pink lips were painted with gloss and she wore her favorite creme peplum dress that contrasted with her skin. Over all she looked amazing and it was sad to walk away but i did and the boys picked her up, ready to carry her out.

I stood in front, looked back at the boys and Brett gave me a nod as if to say 'we're ready to carry her out' i half smiled and began walking outside. I bit my tongue to stop myself crying when i saw all the sad faces on the people that stood near the burial place. My auntie, Liz's mum was in my mothers arms, i couldn't imagine the pain she was in.

Brett, Jake and the rest put her down next to the hole she was going down then stepped back. I wrapped both my arms around Jake and Brett's waist and pulled them close as they put their arms around my shoulders. We all looked as she was lowered down then dirt was being shoveled over her, she didn't want to be cremated but i know i do.

We said our very final last goodbyes, settled flowers on the top then walked away silently all to our cars, Brett drove us home and we tried to have a nice lunch out in a cafe to get our minds off what happened earlier, it worked but the memories will still be burned in the back of my head, just resting there, ready to come out at the worst times.

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{A/N: The next chapter won't be sad i promise :) if you have any recommendations on what the next chapter should have in it please comment or message me ! any thoughts appreciated :) also please read the book 'The Bad Boy Likes Her' by inthecornerofyoureye its in Georgias point of view, thankyou! i love you all mwah}