may 20 2012

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age 16

i had to fly off to film iron man 3, i had avoided to meet up with charlie, by saying my flight was earlier than i thought. it wasnt, but i was 16, and he just turned 17 last week. now if he had sex with me, it was legal. and even if i didnt give consent, know one believe me if i said he raped me. i would have no proof. i didnt wnat to be around him. i was too scared. and i couldnt tell anyone. i knew he would hurt me, but no-one believes the victim.

i caught my flight, the boys still had to do their tour, so harry couldnt come. he said hed come as soon as he could, but i told him, id be done filming by the time i had to go to trials.

in February i had started training again, my coach believed that i could trial for the 2012 olympics, she said she wasnt confident id make it, but i could give it a try. i wanted to make these olympics, and i think i can. ive tried so hard. and if i dont make it, well, i might just kill myself then.

because im going to train as much as i can, i knew that i had to, i needed to do this, its all i wanted since i was little.

i had to.

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