rage

letters to violet 1.

dear violet,

i didn't mean to text you the other day. i'm sorry. god, how i still miss you. i miss you a little everyday, though some days are easier than others.

everything reeks of your memory. 70s music, classic literature, peppermint tea, sunflowers.

i want to forget you so badly, but every thought somehow leads back to you.

i wonder how you could have hurt me like this. after all, you saw it coming. we both did. you knew you'd have to be straightforward with me one day, so why did you wait for months?

if i am being honest, my hate for you outweighs my love. i have grown emotionally unavailable and bitter because of you. so many have used me, and i sincerely believed you were different. you made me look like a fucking fool in front of everyone we know.

yet you still text "i miss you."

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"violet" is a pseudonym for a guy's name.