My HeartGuard ❰MewGulf❱

❧Chapter 10☙

Gulf's POV

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I was feeling warm and cozy as I slowly woke up, a ray of light was peeking from behind the curtains that shined on my face so I turned to the other side, I wanted to return to sleep but a certain feeling made me slowly open my eyes, the first thing I saw was that my hand was on top of a man's bare chest, I glanced up to find that it was Mew which made me relax, wait why did I feel relieved? Mew was holding me so close to him and I was sleeping on his left hand noticing that I was also shirtless

I stayed still as memories of yesterday started coming back bit by bit, I felt my cheeks getting hotter while I kept blinking, my heart started beating so fast just like yesterday, I can't believe we did smth outrageous yesterday and it was my fault, well that evil man's fault to be more exact but I was the one who asked Mew to help me, he warned me but I kept telling him to do whatever he wanted, I really went crazy yesterday

'how can I face Mew after yesterday?' I thought to myself, wait, I should be furious right now, I should be yelling and hitting Mew, he just did whatever he wanted all night long, I should be hating Mew, yet, I'm only embarrassed and relaxed as if what happened was so normal between us... It really somehow felt good... I must have gone crazy... I tried to slowly move away without waking up Mew but my body was so sore that I ended up groaning a little, I quickly covered my mouth but it was too late

"Gulf?" his deep low sleepy voice echoed around the silent room as I slowly turned to face him, I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look him in the eye, he slowly sat up looking down to me while I was laying there without any movements

"I'm sorry" he suddenly said with a depressed apologetic tone

"I should have took you to the hospital or at least I should have controlled myself" he sounded so sad and regretful, he was blaming himself and was about to move

"it's not your fault!" I quickly held his hand making eye contact, I was so shy but if I don't say anything now, we will surely drift apart and he may even leave to go back to London and I don't want that to happen

"I should be thanking you for helping me" he looked surprised for a moment

"but I did an unforgivable things to you, I lost control and..."

"it can't be helped, you also must have smelled the aphrodisiac a bit, besides I was the one who asked you to help me and to do whatever you wanted"

"still, you must be feeling so disgusted and scared right now so I should lea-"

"No! I won't allow you to leave!" I was taken aback by what I just blurted out but I really don't want Mew to go away

"Gulf, you are trembling" he said with a very sad voice

"I'm not disgusted nor scared, I'm trembling because my body is sore and I'm feeling so weak, my back hurts too, I was silent earlier because I'm extremely embarrassed, you already know that I've never done smth like that before" I explained looking away

"so you don't hate me?" I glanced back to see that he is seriously worried and sad, I smiled

"I said this yesterday too, I will never hate you, I would prefer that you have me than that man, actually I'm glad that my first was with you so in case that man may get to me, I won't feel completely terrified and traumatized, if this may happens again, I will still choose you P' Mew" Mew looked stunned for a minute then a wide tender smile appeared on his face

"thank you, I was really concerned and was ready to be kicked out by you, whatever happens, I promise I will take responsibility, I will never leave you Gulf, never" I chuckled