heaven ☆ mick mars

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a/n: hey guys! wow...it's been a long time. it's been nearly two years since i started this story and found out about the existence of mötley crüe. it feels great to be back!!

i had a lot of fun writing this chapter, and even though this wasn't the direction i intended the story to go in two years ago, i can say that i will be updating it regularly from here. enjoy, i hope you're doing well!

sitting alone at the bar, i heard someone shout above the music, "so, how'd you manage to get him on a leash?" my eyes flashed up to see a woman looking at me. i frowned, unsure of whether she was talking to me or not, though it was evident when she raised her eyebrows at me, waiting for a response.

she must've seen us walking in together "w-who, mick?" i stumbled over my words, my face flushing pink slightly.

a leash? did it really seem that way to people?

"duh, the beautiful, legendary mick mars. god, half the girls in here would die to be alone with that man for five minutes." her plump lips met the straw in her glass. in all honesty, she looked like a goddess. i mean seriously, intimidation or what? looks really can kill, i guess. "in fact, chicks over there are drooling over him right now."

frowning at her smug attitude, i turned my head slightly to see what she was talking about.

sure enough, mick appeared to be surrounded by a group of girls. vince and nikki looked over at me anxiously, whilst tommy just sat in shock, his jaw hanging open as he shook his head in confusion. usually all the girls were attached to their hips, not mick's.

i couldn't see mick's reaction. he didn't appear to be moving. which is good and bad. he wasn't encouraging it or interacting, but he also wasn't stopping them.

have i mentioned before that i'm terrible at hiding my emotions? clearly this girl knew that the sight of mick being felt up by girls that weren't me was upsetting.

it was also clear that she was loving every minute, from the smirk on her face. "this is the life you signed up for, sweetie. none of those boys owe anyone anything. you think they know what commitment is? maybe you don't have him on as tight of a leash as i thought.."

"...he chose me, sweetie." i responded, for once feeling confident though i was completely sober. i didn't want to let this girl wreck my mood.

"for how long?"

not even bothering to respond, i grabbed my leather jacket which had been placed on the bar and walked towards the green exit sign.

a wave of nostalgia hit me. outside the back of this club reminded me of the drunken conversation i'd had with mick just short of a month ago. the chaos that had taken place in such a small space of time...welcome to mötley crüe. they'll probably be the cause of some kind of apocalypse.

the door slammed shut behind me as i leant against the metal railings, this time looking out...a car park. certainly not as romantic as last time, not that i was in the mood for romance.

okay, i get it, i'm probably overreacting. in fact, i am. but you didn't see how smug she looked! you only read my description of it, believe me, she loved making me feel insecure.

i mean, who would be completely fine with a group of strippers grinding on their boyfriend, mick mars?

wait, is he my boyfriend?

shit...y'know, i don't think he is?

so i have no reason to be mad..do i?

the questions were never ending. with the way things have been going with mick, i think how i'm feeling is understandable.

as per usual, i wasn't left alone with my thoughts for long as vince, tommy and nikki burst through the double doors, scaring the shit out of me.

"YO LILLY WILLYYYY!" vince shouted at the top of his voice as tommy ran up to me, wrapping his arms around my waist and lifting me off the floor in a tight hug, then putting me back down.

"piggy back?" tommy asked as i nodded and jumped on his back.

"did you see?" nikki asked sympathetically.

i smiled, trying to mask the jealousy. "oh i didn't just see. i got a live commentary from the chick sat next to me."

"her names joanna." vince spoke as he lay on his back in the gravel, staring up at the cloudy night sky.

"who?" i asked.

"she's this weird chick that's obsessed with mick. follows us around on tour a lot. surprised she's only just shown her face for the first time in months." tommy explained as he began walking with me on his back towards the car park.

great. so now some chick called joanna exists (if your name is joanna, i love the name!! i just don't like this particular joanna smh). the universe had been quite forgiving so far, not giving me and mick many obstacles to contend with. but now, there's a joanna. and my mom, and asshole of a stepdad.

nikki sighed, walking alongside us. "lilly, i swear to god..if you're upset about this, i will beat the shit-"

"oh brother, you don't have to save me. shouldn't someone stay with him? why're we leaving?" i interrupted him as i jumped down from tommy's back, vince catching up with us.

vince groaned. "because we had a rock paper scissors contest, whoever won got to decide whether we stay here or stick with movie night..."

i rolled my eyes, giggling at their childish games. "who won?"

"mick." nikki spoke awkwardly. i stopped walking, causing all of them to stop and look at me.

"what did he pick?"

"movie night." vince replied quietly.

frowning, i continued walking slowly, the others carrying on too. "okay..so why is he still in there?" i tried to ask casually, but i think they could sense my confusion and paranoia.

tommy wrapped his arm around me as we walked, still at a painfully slow pace. "i-i don't know...maybe he was having one of his stiff moments, you know, when he struggles to move?"

"oh i bet he was stiff alright.." i mumbled, making the guys crack up.

"honestly lillian, he's probably telling joanna to back the fuck off. wouldn't be the first time. joanna probably paid those chicks to swarm him." vince said before patting my back. "let's just lock the hotel door and not let him in!" he exclaimed as he came out with what he believed was a genius plan.

i smiled at him before it faded. we continued on our walk to the hotel, assuming mick would catch up eventually.

a drop of rain hit my head as a shower began pouring from the skies. somehow, it made us all laugh. all of us except vince.

"sHIT THESE ARE MY BEST LEATHER PANTS I CAN'T LET THEM GET. FUCKING. WET." he paused between his words as he ripped at the shrubbery nearby, attempting to cover his pants with leaves and sticks.

a genuine smile crept onto my face. "y'know...we were only in that club for five minutes. i think this is the most sober you guys have been for a long time." i spoke over the lashing rain.

"IT SUCKS." nikki shouted, though i could tell he knew it was for the best.

"yeah, yeah we're totally sober." tommy added, tripping on a raised crack in the sidewalk.

i shook my head, giggling. it was approaching midnight.

breathe, stay calm, i'm sure he's on his way back soon.

spoiler alert: he wasn't.