"..what?"
he silently laughs before looking back up at me with glistening eyes. behind his soft smile he looked hurt. pained. like he was barely holding on by a thread. i hurt for him. i understood what that felt like, i mean i've felt it all my life.
"every."
"single.
"one."
he says barely smiling. how is that even possible?? why is my mind different? what is happening to him? or me...? i sit there in shock with my mouth dropped to the floor frozen in place. he giggles and tilts his head a little like he's expecting an answer. what do i even say to that?!? no normal person can do that.
"well..?"
i stutter blinking rapidly before spilling out, "how-? wh- why me? how is that possible?? no normal person can do that?!" i raise my voice a little. he barely smiles before taking a breath in, "i wish i could tell you why george, but you have to trust it's for your own safety." he sighs and looks down, "i've tried to keep my distance but i cant. i cant read yours and it drives me crazy." he stutters, "i-.... i need to protect you george."
i exhale shakily releasing the breath i didn't know i was holding. i sit there silently trying to take what he just said in. "is that why you came into the parking lot..?" he looks around before slightly leaning in "i tried to keep my distance and stay far, only possibly helping if you needed me. but.. when i heard what they were thinking i panicked. i-... i couldn't handle it. i was so, so close to hurting them. so. close george." i look to his eyes and say "how do i know your not lying-?"
he looked at me with a smile and looked around the room. the spotted a group of 4 girls next to 2 guys at a table. he stared for a minute at them, thinking.
"sex, money, alcohol, sex, alcohol, and love."
"funny how only the boys crave sex."
i open my eyes a little wide before looking back at the table. he didn't look wrong, the guys were all over the blonde girls barely keeping it in their pants. i shiver in disgust before glancing back at him.
"you really can't tell me how you can do that?" i say a little upset and honestly scared. "i wish i could. but i need to keep you safe." he says with a fake smile. by this time the waiter came over asking us for our orders. i ordered spaghetti and when the waiter came to ask clay what he wanted he refused. "are you sure i can't get you anything..?" the girl said resting her hand on his shoulder. he looked annoyed and disgusted and moved his shoulder a bit. "again, im fine." he says not even glancing at her. "okay, tell me if you do and i'll get it right away." she says winking and walking away. for some reason that made my chest burn. like a fire inside my heart was getting bigger. feeding on jealousy. he obviously wasn't interested so why did she try?? it confused me why he wasn't though. she was very pretty. i wasn't interested though either, because i was gay. but nobody knew that anyways. even though he showed no interest it still stung that she tried. but why did it? i didn't like him, right?
"why didn't you order anything?" i say with confusion. "i've like never seen you eat clay." i say with confusion. he looks at me and softly says "i'm on a... special diet." he knew i didn't believe it but i didn't wanna push him farther than his boundaries so i left it at that. we just talked about what happened the whole time i was eating and eventually it got pretty late. we started heading out and eventually got to his car and started heading home. i was still on edge in the car a little nervous from before still. i was trying to distract myself by looking around out the window. the pure black sky barly illuminating the dark green trees and faint road ahead. thousands of burning stars in the sky barely making any light. i turned my head to advert my gaze when i noticed clay didn't have his seatbelt on once again.
