So Far, So Good

Stupid Decisions

When I got out of the shower, I walked back into the room and Kat was still sitting on my bed as if she hadn’t moved an inch. She watched me as I picked up things around my room. I could tell she was waiting for me to tell her what was on my mind. I was extremely nervous and didn’t know how to come forth and tell her the news.

“You need to tell me Alex,” Kat pushed “I want to help you.”

Shyly I looked down. I motioned for her to get up and to follow me. We walked outside because I wouldn’t risk telling her while I was in the same house as my mother. We were walking quietly at first until Kat stopped me and jumped in front of me.

“You need to tell me now,” Kat said with a serious face. “I won’t let you go if you don’t.”

I knew it was time for me to come clean, there was no way I could hide my secret any longer. In my head I was debating if I should tell her the real secret, or if I should just make up some lie. I didn’t want Kat, my best friend, to be disappointed with me. I remember when we were in the eighth grade and we promised each other that we wouldn’t have sex until we were married, that way we could be best friends and moms together.

“Well, Kat, I think I’m pregnant.” I said quickly. I thought it’d be better to just tell her, kind of like ripping off a band aid.

I closed my eyes as I waited for her reply. I was extremely terrified, and it felt like I was going to break into tears.

“Oh.” Kat said and moved aside. She started to walk again.

I felt like a terrible friend. I broke an important promise with a stupid decision. It was a decision that I made on impulse. I continued to walk besides Kat in a desperate attempt to get her to talk to me again.

“Please Kat, I’m so sorry,” I tried to tell her, but she just walked faster “ let me explain first.”

I wanted to remind her that I only think I’m pregnant, but she wouldn’t stop to listen. I realized she was walking back to her house. Kat hated me. If I was pregnant, I needed someone there for me, someone besides Steven. I needed someone I could tell everything to, and that someone just wasn’t Steven.

“No,” Kat stopped and yelled back at me “I thought you were smarter than that Alexandria, even if you weren’t I thought you’d at least keep your promise.”

Even though I was extremely mad at Kat for calling me stupid, I had to admit she was half right. I made a stupid decision that’ll affect everything from this point on. I stopped because I knew talking to Kat right now would be pointless. She just kept walking, and never looked back. If telling Kat made her react this way, I didn’t even want to know how Steven would react. I know I never made a promise with him, but I didn’t want to be the one responsible for ruining his high school years. I could honestly say that I really hated my life at this point.