breathing

RIDDANCE

All these marks on the streets
Remind me of all the blood on my sheets
Everywhere I look is a reminder
That this is all a game
And we play for keeps
Going to bed with dreams
Waking up with fears
You might be all ears
But I can't talk without my tears
How can I explain that the end is very near

My insides are filled with rust
Maybe that's why my words are dust
Scrambled, unexplained but they must
I no longer feel any lust
I should've aborted this mission
From the very first session
Did I forget to mention
How much hatred and tension
My brain is in another dimension
Maybe it's all fiction
All these lies and comprehensions
Why am I so frustrated?
I should've immigrated
But there's no place for me on these rotten grounds
No symphonies, not any sounds

For salvation I start begging
The void that's inside of me I try filling
All the voices that needs killing
All you think about is self-hate
How you never were self-made
When your thoughts start to escalate
And your brain starts to complicate
When you're no longer fascinate
And you can't elaborate
Truth be told, I am scared

Here's the deepest secret that no one knows
When you stare at yourself in the mirror from your head to your toes
All the pain that's inside but where it goes
Your skin is rough, scared like a garden water hose
Trying to give life to a pale little rose
Deliverance is all you think of when you overdose

Lying in bed and closing the lights
Thinking how this could be the last of your nights
Hoping your soul would go high above
But what about your fear of heights
You just have to hold on tight
Because this time you might be right
As children we used to run around flying our kites
I never had the chance to do that but I hope you might
When everything start turning white
You might actually be losing this fight
As you begin to lose your sight

Real fast
Real quick
This might be my last cigarette
Let me take my first sip
Followed by my final breath

When you're no longer nervous
Floating still on the surface
Lifeless
Getting rid of all the sadness
Falling in love with your madness