Unforgettable Fond [MiChaeng Fanfic]

Chapter 32

She paused and looked at me. 

It was because you didn't really save me. 

"I don't hate you Chaeyoung, and I was sincere when I told you that the weeks I spent with you made me really happy. 

But it made me realize something too. 

That the happiness when I'm with you cannot be compared to what I'm feeling when I'm with Jeongyeon. 

I'm the happiest when I'm with her. 

I know she doesn't love me and I don't know the reason why we're back together again but I don't care. 

As long as I love her and that she still chose to be with me. "

Mina said. Does she know that every word she's saying is killing me? 

"I can't say that I already forgive you for what you did to me, but I'll try..

You also became my friend. 

You did me a favor even if it's just because you're guilty. 

You brought Jeongyeon back to me. 

You gave me a beautiful friendship with Somi even if she said she only stayed because you asked her to. "

Mina continued. 

Ah, Somi already told her. 

"I also realized that I was that girl you told me you're in love with. 

I'm thankful for that but I don't think you really love me. 

Maybe you're just guilty that's why you thought you love me. 

Maybe, it wasn't love in the first place. 

I can't remember anything but I don't think it's love. "

Mina said while looking at me. 

She's questioning my love for her? 

Let's say I was guilty because I thought she really saved me. 

But after knowing the truth that it was me who saved her.. 

My feelings didn't change. I still love her. 

"Remember those.. Those emails you always receive everyday?" 

I asked. She looked at me and took out her phone. 

"I always visit your room even when you're still asleep. I always talk to you. I was the one who's with you the moment I woke up. 

I was the one…" 

I paused.. What's the sense of telling her all of these? 

"What?" 

Mina asked and looked at me.. 

"Those emails are all from me." 

Yeah, I set an scheduled email to be sent to her everyday. 

It's all bible verses. It's not out of guilt. I just want to send her those so she could gain strength everyday. 

I know it's simple. 

"Why? Because you're guilty, again?" 

Mina asked again. I can never change her mind. 

I didn't utter any word again and pulled her for a hug. 

She tried breaking free, but I held her still. 

"Didn't you feel any love coming from me? 

Didn't you at least appreciate some things I did for you? 

I'm getting tired, Mina.. 

I know I can't have you, but can't you appreciate me just a little bit?" 

I asked in a low voice. All my energy was gone. 

Somi was right, no matter where I looked at this situation, 

I'm the loser. 

"Stop." 

Mina successfully got herself away from me. 

"No one told you to do it. 

And Chaeyoung, I am really thankful to you.. 

But please, let's not meet again." 

Mina said. I looked at her and she's shedding tears. 

Am I hurting her too much? 

"You didn't appreciate me?" 

I asked for the last time. Mina didn't answer but she's crying. 

I handed her my handkerchief and smiled at her for the last time. 

I don't want to give her another water because I won't be the one who will be with her. 

I just want to stop her tears right now. 

I walked away. Without looking back. 

I almost got hit by a car twice. 

Good thing, they're not driving fast. 

Now, What am I supposed to do?