lovely neighbour | tommyinnit

fortyfour.

It was a beautiful place to be at night, you got to watch as all the colourful led signs lit up in front of every shop. As you walk past each shop, there would be people inside enjoying what it had to offer. It felt like so warm, yet so cold since we had to look in from the outside.

"So why did you not want Oliver to come?" I finally asked Tommy. We were walking side by side with our hands in our pockets.

"You noticed that?" He laughed and puffs of smoke came out of his breath. I smiled back at him and laughed as well.

"Do you like him?" Tommy asked in a much more serious tone.

"Haven't we been over this before?" I tilted my head to the left and and smiled at Tommy.

"Sorry, I just saw you guys earlier and I thought," He replied before getting cut off by me.

"Just now? Are you talking about the game?" I asked stopping in the middle of the street. Tommy stopped as well and turned to his left tilting his head down to look at me.

"He was leaning on you earlier," He replied.

"As in while we watched the movie? How did you know?" I responded with a confused tone.

Tommy kept quiet indicating that he didn't want to answer that question. I just assumed that he saw while on a toilet break.

"Why do you care so much if I like him?" I asked bending down and tilting my head up towards him.

"Because," He said brushing his hand through his hair. He kept quiet for a second as I stood back up and looked at him.

"Because," I repeated after him mockingly dragging out the 'cause'. Out of the blue, he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me closer. I was now looking directly up at his light blue eyes.

"Because I still love you."

"I love you so much that even after you left me with no reason, I still couldn't bring myself to hate you. My love for you is so great that even after I told myself that I wouldn't fall for you again after all these years, I did," Tommy kept going on.

And after all this time
I'm still into you
I should be over all the butterflies but I'm into you, I'm into you

"Tommy-," I started before getting interrupted by him.

"I did, the moment I saw you back at the wedding. I tried to get rid of the little crush, instead it kept growing and now you're the only thing that occupies my mind everyday. This whole month I couldn't talk to you was excruciating. Seeing you so tired every morning didn't help anything too, I spent most of my time worrying about you. It pained me to see you like this," He continued.

"Tommy, we can talk about this another day," I said looking away. I didn't want him to ruin what we had right now. There was a reason why we weren't together, I was scared to lose him again.

I was afraid.

"Y/N, answer me seriously. Do you love me?" He asked. I slowly looked back at his longing eyes, I knew he wanted my genuine response.

"Of course I do."

"Then why don't we give it another shot?" Tommy asked in a desperate tone still holding onto my shoulders.

We stood there in the middle of a street full of lit up signboards in the cold. It was just me and him, we were in our little world staring back at each other. I opened my mouth to speak but instead let out a breath. Smoke came out of my mouth instead of words, because I utterly speechless.

My brain wanted to say no, but my heart wanted to say yes. I was terrified of the bad things that could happen, yet I wanted so badly to take that risk. To try again and see if we could have a future together or to play safe and be content with what we had now.

He pushed me away to get a better look at me. With all the lights shining onto us, it made me reminisce on the past. When we used to take our nightly walks talking about everything under the sun. When we would stop under the streetlights to take a short break and I would just stare at him as if he was my whole world.

"Y/N, be mine. Forever."

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