MBS1 : My Patient is a Mafia Boss

continuation

I mean, of course sa una I'm a bit scared after knowing what kind of people they really are. But i had come to this conclusion na they're not that bad. Wala naman kase silang ginagawa na ikinatatakot ko pa lalo ng pang matagalan. Hindi rin naman nila ako sinasaktan physically and even aided my necessities. But still, ok na yung nag iingat.

"W-what kind of talk is that?" Medyo kabadong tanong ko. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit natanong ko ang tanong na iyun. Agad akong napasiksik sa headboard ng kama. Totally meantainning our distance. Sa sunbrang laking tao nya kase ay he almost occupied the half of the bed. And take note nakauopo palang sya on that matter.

"An ordinary talk when two people are having some quarrels and arguments, of course. Or maybe you want something more?" He said, smirking in the last part of his sentence. I wonder kung saan pupunta at papunta ang usapang ito. I just hope for the worst.

"D-don't play around the bush Ephra--i mean D-death. Just go direct to the point, and leave me alone" Buntong hiningang sabi ko. Anjan na naman ang mga titig nya.

"I'm not playing around the bush Briar" He chirp, becoming more serious. I bite my lower lip.

"I wanted to say that I'm sorry. That's what i came for. I wanted to say sorry, even though I never really said sorry to anyone in my whole life before. But only to you" Pag dugtong nya at tinitigan ako sa mata. Hindi ko naman maintindihan ang dapat kong maramdaman.

I mean he never said sorry to anyone before, but me? Should I be glad about that? Dahil iba ang pakikitungo nya sa akin? At nababago ko sya somehow? Or maybe I should be angry, dahil alam kong his saying sorry because he needed me and doesn't want to lose me just yet? And pitied me like a child that need some affection, to make me believe and come back to him?

Which one should i supposed to feel? I don't know...

Napailing ako sa mga iniisip ko. Of course his saying sorry cause he needed me. His a Mafia Boss after all. His good at controlling people. Alam nya ang mga kahinaan ng lahat, at magaling syang laruin at palabasin ang mga salita sa bibig nya. Ano pa bang maasahan ko?

"Death you know? Lying is better than a fake sorry..." Again I sigh at tinitigan ang mata nya. But like as always, I failed on looking for answers in them.

"Briar I'm not lying, just listen to me first please" Hi voice was almost on begging, but his face tell the otherwise.

Stupid me, apakadaling umasa. Of course, he will never beg for a stupid doctor like me. Ni baka nga hindi nya alam ang salitang begging. I can't I affect him the way he affect me...

"Death... Just not now, please? I... I can't. J-just leave me a-alone in peace" Marahang sabi ko sa kanya, but not really sure kung yun ba talaga ang gusto ko. For him to leave me alone in peace. I mean his the only one who make me in peace, at hindi ko alam kong magiging peaceful ang oras ko pag umalis sya. Iwasan ako...

Basta ang gulo. Ang utak ko ay galit sa kanya, pero yung puso ko ay kinukontra yun.

"Do you really want me to leave you alone?" He asked firmly. Ang dilim ng aura nya ngayun. Hindi rin nakatakas sa gilid ng mata ko kung paano umigting ang panga nya, sa tulong narin ng kaunting ilaw na nanggagaling sa lampshade ko. Mas naging lifeless ang mata nya habang nakatitig sa akin. Calculating me.

No, I don't want you to leave me alone, I need you here in my side...

Pilit na sinisigaw ng puso ko, but I'm too scared to say it kaya nanahimik nalang ako. I like him. I like him indeed. If not ay hindi ako mahihirapan ng ganito.

"Answer me now. I hate waiting" He commanded. His so cold and distant. It made my spine shivered. Nakikita kung parang inip na inip na ito.

"I.... Y-yes..." I defeatedly said then tumongo. Not wanting him to see some tears na nag babadya na naman na tumolo.

I hate this feeling. I hate my decision, but I have too... This will be good for the both of us. Hindi ko lang alam kung hanggang kelan ko to makakaya. Ang set up namin na to. I like him but I don't know if he like me too. He indeed need me but that's just that. Walang affection na gusto kong ibigay nya. Pag hindi ko inilayo ang sarili ko ay baka umasa pa ako lalo.

"Then be it Briar. You have my words. I will leave you in peace like you wanted too. I guess this conversation of ours ends here. I will leave first" He declared, then tumayo na sa kama ko. Leaving me alone like what I wanted. Nakatitig lang naman ako sa likod nya hanggang sa maglaho na sya sa paningin ko.

Nang wala na talaga sya ay hindi ko na mapigilang umiyak. Letting my tears to enjoy them selves. Sliding down on my cheeks with freedom. I just hope that I made the right choice and decision...

You will regret this Briar! You will regret this! Ang duwag mo kase. You should have at least try and risk a little, and listen to him. You said your mature enough? Then why are you acting like an immature child who can't even be honest to herself?  Now suffer from the consequences you choose yourself.

A coward will always be hurt by regrets.

END CHAP NINE

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