Invisible Strings

4

He kissed my lips to silence me. "Babe.. oh my god.. I thought you have experience" bakas sakaniya ang pagkagulat.

"Punyeta ka Stephen." Ramdam ko parin ang pananakit ng pagkababae ko. Hindi siya gumalaw doon pero nakadagan parin siya sa akin... at nasa loob ko parin siya.

"Alis kana please. M-masakit." I cried. Pinunasan niya ang takas na luha sa mga mata ko.

"Babe, don't back out now. I-I promise I won't ever disappoint you. I'll always be with you. Thank you for choosing me, Qofte" he started telling me words you don't expect in the middle of an intercourse as he kissed my face dearly.

Talagang nangangako siya sa akin habang nasa loob ko siya ha? Nakalaklak ata ito ng sugar cubes sa kanila. I couldn't concentrate though, I could feel his manhood inside me as I held my breath.

"Relax babe, you'll get used to it."

The next time I opened my eyes, I already have clothes on. The curtains were moved for the natural light to come in. Nakaamoy ako ng tsokolate.

"Fuck" usal ko nang maalala ang kagabi. Was last night real? Kinapa ko ang pagkababae ko at nakaramdam ng kirot. I'm fucking sore. I did it last night.

"Qofte, come out now. I know you're awake." Stephen shouted. Kumabog ako dibdib ko nang marinig ang boses niya.

What are the consequences of playing with fire? Naalala ko ang paulit-ulit na paalala ni Reina sa akin tungkol sa apoy. I should stay away from it because it will only cause pain and it will destroy everything I have.

Last night was a moment of weakness. I already had the embers in me and his kisses were the gasoline, we had no other option but to be in flames.

But that's just my body making excuses. Wala ako sa katinuan kagabi. 

Now that it happened.. Ang mga sumunod na paalala sa akin ni Reina ay kung paano magevacuate. We had our own fire drill at home in cases of emergency. Malaki kasi ang bahay ng mga Illagan. We have to stay low and get out of the house ASAP and meet each other for the next three minutes.

Finding your way out was the hardest. Kailangan mong maging alerto para sa kung ano mang bagay na may potential na makapanakit sayo- you have to watch out for the smokes and anything that might fall on you.

You must always know how to get out of the house and in doing that, you must always think of your own safety.

I failed to prevent the fire so my next move is to find an escape route. Ang kinakatakot ko ngayon ay ang sarili ko. What will I do now that I catched the fire? I cannot simply stop, drop and roll.

Because he imprinted me. He will always be a part of me even if I manage to escape.

"Qofte, morning." Siya na ang lumapit sa kama.  Tinabihan niya ako at masuyong hinalikan ang pisngi ko. "I made almusal, kahali-halina"

Pigil akong natawa sa sinabi niya. Ano ulit yon? Kahali-halina? Who says that word in this age?

"Are you drunk?" Natatawang-tanong ko. He looked at me puzzled.

"I assume I studied the wrong word?" He said in a low voice. I suddenly found him cute dahil sa pagnguso niya. "Damn that google translate"

"I thought you had your nana, Steph? Bakit di mo nalang siya tinawagan?" Mapanuyang asar ko.

"Why didn't I call? I did! I phoned them. They're making fun of me at home" Binalingan niya ako. "And now you"

Parang may kung anong kumatok sa dibdib ko habang nagkukwento siya.

"You really like me huh" I leaned in to kiss his cheeks. Hindi na niya pinatulan ang pang-aasar ko. He just looked at me and then proceeded on kissing me torridly.

Hindi pa ako nakakapaghilamos at nakikipagmomol na naman tong lalaking to. At ako naman, marupok sakaniya. Dakilang marupok.

"Let's fill you up, Qofte, I made breakfast.. Let's go before we fill each other here"

Agad ko siyang tinulak sa kabastosan ng utak niya. Ilang beses kong minura siya sa isip ko.

"Wow, you cooked a lot."

He made pancakes with a vegetable filling and yogurt inside. May baked potato din at soup. Pamares niya ang hot chocolate na kanina kopa naamoy.

Yung totoo? Anong oras siya nagising?

"Ofcourse, we'd talk a lot too."

Escape route. That's all I could think of as I sat on the chair provided for us to eat. His gray eyes hinted seriousness. Pakiramdam ko pinapakain ako ng marami bago katayin at ialay.

Paano pa ako kakain ngayon sa kaba? He sat beside me and held my hand.. Why does it feel like a social responsibility answering his questions?

Sanji's Swan

"My mom told me every day to always be careful of guysBecause love is like playing with fire, I'll get hurtMy mom might be right 'cause when I see you, my heart burns'Cause instead of being scared, I'm more attracted to you"-Playing with Fire, Blackpink