Opposites Attract

Chapter 39

  I sat there on the chair at the vanity and looked at my reflection in the mirror. Your eyes look so pretty. Sebastian had said that to me one morning. And when you bite your lip, it makes me wanna kiss you bad. He said when I bit my lip after he told me he liked my eyes. Don't cry, it doesn't look good on you. My body shook as his face came into view. I was never going to see my Sebastian again. What would you like us to be? I asked him one morning when he pretended we are strangers. Mine if you'd like. He was so smooth with words. I was never going to be his, I wanted to badly to be his forever and ever.

  Mom placed her hands on my shoulders and I lightly touched her left hand. She was crying too. The air was being snuffed out of my body, I looked at my left wrist where the bracelet he gave me lied shining bright oblivious to the darkness surrounding its wearer. Don't ever take them off. He made me promise. You bring color to my life and make it meaningful. I closed my eyes tightly and tried to not remember him but he was everywhere, in my head and in my heart. Take everything, baby, my heart and soul and body. A strand of hair curled up beside my ear and I pushed it back. I felt like I was betraying him. I knew I was betraying him and myself but I was helpless.

  Dad walked in abruptly and said, "if you two are done with your emotional drama, let me know, the priest is waiting."

  Mom joined her hands together in plea and fell to her knees in surrender, "please Anthony don't do this." She sobbed. "She's your daughter. Tell Shayo not to marry her." Her voice cracked, she sounded broken.

  "You should have thought about that when you brought this thing home to me saying she was mine," PS I was the 'thing' he referred to.

  "But she's your own flesh and blood. How do you want me to explain it to you?"

  "I begged you for the truth years ago, you didn't tell me?" He was accusing her of infidelity. I was not surprised or shocked, if anything I expected something like this from him.

  "I'm telling you the truth, please don't do this." She begged.

  "Mom, it's okay." I managed. It was only getting married to my friend turned enemy right? It entails so much more than that, honey. I'm so clam about this all, you wouldn't think I was wasting my life away by marrying Shayo.

  "I don't care about you or your daughter, just get ready." He left as abruptly as he came. I saw something flash in mom's eyes as she turned back to face me with swollen and defeated eyes. She still loves him, I didn't get it, even after all she has been through from him she still loves him.

  "You love dad don't you?" I asked and she avoided my gaze. So I was right.

  "Yes," she finally answered. "I love him and I sleep everyday thinking, hoping, praying that he'd come back to his senses and stop hurting me. I did try to kill him but it was to make it easier for all of us. I killed him because of him than because of any of us.

  "Everyone will find peace in death, or was that not want the Bible said?" I wanted to say it was every soul shall taste death but I let it be. I wanted him to find peace. I looked down at my folded hands and cried. "There was nothing I could do about it. I wanted my husband to find peace." She cried. "I can't bear it when he hurts you or me, I can't bear it."

  I stood up with heavy legs and mom held my arm as she led me out of the room. Wear your smile always, it's your best feature. Sebastian had complimented me. My smile slipped as I remembered I was betraying myself and him. I was not looking where I was going but mom tightened her hold on my hand. I looked beside me and sure enough, dad was holding a gun to her head. My life is dramatic lately, like in the action movies, they just produce guns like it was rice. I get that you can own a gun but still.