Fighting Cancer (EulBert)

Special Chapter

Eula's POV
I am currently in our garden, drinking coffee until Albert, my husband told me to come with him.

Nagtanong naman ako agad kung saan kami pupunta but he just smiled. A smile full of sadness. He held my hand as we both went to our car. I once again asked but he looked at me with sadness. I felt weird, of course pero hindi na ko nangulit. Maghihintay nalang ako until we get there.

The whole car ride was silent. He wasn't talking and I did the same. Sobrang focused niya sa pagmamaneho. Ako naman, nakatitig lang sa labas, appreciating the beauty of the world kahit magulo na siya. Drama.

Di ko namalayan, natulog ako. Nagising ako kasi tinapik niya ako at bumungad na naman sa akin yung malungkot niyang mata.

He opened the door for me and held my hand habang papunta kami somewhere. It was familliar kasi parang papunta kami sa clinic ni Dr. Peters. My doctor dati nung nagkacancer ko. Baka dadalawin lang namin or something. While we were on our way, I felt that his hand was cold. For the last time, I asked kung anong problema pero wala pa rin akong natanggap na sagot mula sa kanya.

He opened the door to Dr. Peters' clinic at like Albert, her eyes were gloomy. Ano ba nangyayari? I greeted the doctor pero tiningnan niya lang ako. This is very unusual.

"Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Martinez. We meet again," she said which I really find it creepy. She was faking a smile, what the hell is happening?

"Ano po ba meron, Doc? Why are we here?" I asked and looked at Albert who was sitting silently beside me. Wala pa ring imik.

"Would you guys mind telling me what's happening? O baka naman you have a surprise for me. Nako, ikaw Albert talaga, dinamay mo pa si Doktora," I laughed pero wala pa rin silang pake. Tahimik lang sila.

"Mr. Martinez, lumabas na po ang test results," Dr. Peters said. Wait, test results? For what?

"Ano yung lumabas?" He asked eagerly. Pinili ko nalang na wag ng sumabat kasi hindi ko naman alam kung anong meron dahil ayaw naman nila magsalita. Nakinig nalang ako.

"Confirmed, Mr. Martinez. The growth that we found your liver is a tumor. It is malignant in which abnormal cells divide without control and can invade nearby tissues. Kung baga, out of control." Sabi ni Doktora. Unti-unti nagsink in yung sinabi niya. Those were the exact words that she told us nung sinabi niya sa amin results nung test ko nung nagka-cancer ako. And this time, si Albert naman. What the hell is happening??? Hindi naman sinabi ng asawa ko. I had no clue, ni hindi ko napansin.

"Doc, pwede po ba paki-ulit?" I said nervously. This can't be happening. Ayoko na bumalik sa stress na naranasan namin. Ayoko nang may mawala pa sa amin. Lord, please tell me that this is not true.

"May liver cancer si Mr. Martinez. I'm sorry, Ma'am. But he's in his terminal stage already. At sa laki ng tumor, wala na po tayong magagawa kundi ang intayin na.." sabi ni Doktora. Hindi 'to pwede. Unti-unting lumabas yung luha kong pinipigilan.

"Anong wala?!! Hindi pwedeng wala kayong gawin!" I shouted as Albert hugged me. I kept shouting "no" and "no" tapos iyak ako nang iyak. Hindi pwede mangyari 'to. Ayoko nang mawalan pa ng pamilya. Take me instead. Hindi ko na kakayanin. I couldn't stop crying until everything went black.

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Hanggang sa magising ako. I woke up panting with Albert rubbing my back. There was tears in my eyes as I looked at him and hugged him. It was just a dream. I felt relieved at ang paghagod niya sa likod ko ay sobrang nakatulong but my eyes couldn't stop from being watery.

"Shhh, it was just a nightmare, Hon," he whispered, still rubbing my back. I don't know, it really felt real. Mabuti nalang, panaginip lang. Kasi kung hindi 'yung panaginip, hindi ko kakayanin.