Him

Chapter 25

White headlights severed the darkness as I veered from the two-lane highway. I gripped the steering wheel with one and adjusted the rearview mirrior with the other. Calm down, Laura. Just calm down. I squinted into the darkness. He was somewhere out there. I can feel him. I know his presence anywhere. But my senses started to cloud over once I started crying. He made me this way. He was gonna fix it. He was gonna fix me. I wiped off my tears as I started to drive once again.

I made it home safely. My throat felt tight,like I couldn't get enough air. I gasped trying to find some. I was lacking a lot of oxygen. I ran my hands through my hair.It wasn't as full as it was before. Its been falling out piece by piece. I wasn't eating well either.I ignored my growling stomach.  I took a cold bottle of water. About as cold as he is. I took a sip and tilted my head back. Without having the water hit my dry tongue. I couldn't move. I just balled my eyes out. How could he do that to me? How could he make moving on look so easy? He made me feel special but I was just like everyone else. How could he have the power to affect me so much in so little time? He claims to own me like I'm some type of property. A property that is his. I can't have any guy walk up to me and ask me out. But he can have 6 girls a week!? Pure disgust. I rolled over on my cold bed sheets.

I was seeking for warmth and I was getting none.I wrapped myself around them and I was still freezing. Still shivering as fog was made with every breath I took. My eyes froze open but my tears still going. He doesn't love me. He's been with 3 other girls since we broke up. Everytime I'm with people that are guys, he scares them off. I'm still the center of his attention but I still don't see it. Everyone told me in the beginning. I should've listened. My heart was shedding tears also. My skin was so pale, you'd think I was out in the snow all winter long. I wasn't even outside for long. He's going to fix me. He's going make this all better. He loves me. He loves me. I believe him. I trust him even as if my life was on the line.

How did you get here under my skin? There's something about him that's so addicting. I should've known better but now I know cause here we go again. It's probably what's for you. I only want the best for you. If I'm not the best then your stuck. I tried be strong but I just ended up with wounds to bind. Like he's pouring salt on my cuts. I cried out in pain. Make it stop. Make it stop please. Just hold my hand one more time and tell me you really love me. Tell me you'll always be there. Nothing. I threw the cover off me. I got up and ran to the bathroom.

I took a sharp blade out of the razor. I wiped my face. I opened the faucet. Water filled the sink. I dunked my face into it. I took my face out. The water was freezing. I felt warmer. I looked at the blade. I'm sure that cut wouldn't hurt as much as the cut on my heart. I put it back carefully. Save me. Why won't you answer my calls? I slowly walked back to my room. I smelled something. It was too familiar. His scent. Him. I looked around the room. My window was open. I slowly waked over to it. There lie a dozen roses and a card. I picked them up. "I love you too. I'll see you soon." I read. I smelled the roses. It just brought more memories and tears. I stared into the distance.
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