Nerd to Mafia (JIMIN xBTS)

2 thinking

  I'm on my bed and thinking what I should do about myself

“ i feel like dieing myself sometimes I feel like looser because I can't even stand for myself. I want to show them want I can do but I'm not having enough strength I want show them how they broke my heart into million pieces to the end where I can't even fix them I once was a friend to bts but after few weeks they started saying bad words and beating and always they call me fat ugly, loser, all the words not only my whole school says bad words and I can't even eat lunch because they won't let me eat and says me fat. I'm really fed up with all this I want to show them now what I can do but how I don't know

Should I die and take revenge or move on. Ill decided tom"

I slept whole night crying on my bed remembering my parents and my only true friend from childhood.

Present

Yeah!! I thought of going to school so I'm walking to the school but when I'm at the corner of alley I saw bts I got so angry because I don't want to see them so I didn't go to school even though only one week is left for me to finish school days.

I run to my home and locked myself and cried all the time thinking what to do while sitting on sofa
I don't know when I slept while crying now it's evening almost 7.30pm at night.
I didn't even know myself how I slept all day.

It has been almost 4 days I stayed at home all day with out going out I ate only when I'm hungry and needed now it's almost 7.30pm at night I want to go out to get fresh air and to decide about my life.