The Mission

Chapter 14

"I want you to touch me. I want you to make love to me," you said, throwing Ari off for a mere few seconds. His hands were still cusped around your cheeks, his cock twitching at your words. He would be lying if he said he didn't want to have sex with you, but he didn't think this was the right time.

"Y/N," he said your name so softly, it touched your heart. "I would feel like I'm taking advantage of you if that were to happen tonight."

He watched you lean up onto your elbows before moving into a sitting position. "This is what I want Ari. It's what I've wanted for a while now. You wouldn't be taking advantage of me."

Ari let out a deep sigh, sitting up with you. "What you've just gone through with Amina and the Hadandawa, you need time to heal baby, time to mourn."

Ari watched as your eyes closed, your head bowing down. It hurt him to see you this way, he wanted nothing more than to take all your pain away. You were such a strong woman, going through a traumatic experience a year ago with your friend in the Peace Corps, and now this. Nobody deserved to go through such a harrowing time, especially someone like you. He had noticed from the day you arrived at the resort how much this mission meant to you; how important it was to you. As time went on, getting to know you more, you had the biggest heart of anyone he had ever met.

He placed a finger under your chin, lifting your gaze to meet his. His eyes traveled down to your lips only to see you chewing on your bottom lip. Since your time spent here, he had noticed you did that a lot, but he never told you how hard his cock got each time he witnessed you doing so.

"Are you sure this is what you want?"

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Your lips parted as you closed your eyes at his question. No, there is no way he would be taking advantage of you. This was not only something you wanted, but what you needed. Of course you would mourn for your friend; you would never forget the bravery she had shown upon you. But right now, you needed a distraction, even just for a little while.

"Yes Ari," you breathed out, opening your eyes to see him carefully looking at you.

His eyes glanced down at the bed as you could tell he was thinking about what you had asked for. If he didn't want to sleep with you, you wouldn't hold it against him. He had called you 'baby', told you he was scared of losing you, but that didn't mean he felt the same way you felt about him; yet you didn't mind at this point. Your feelings for him were strong and there was nothing you could do about that if he didn't reciprocate them. Either way, you considered him a great friend and one hell of an amazing leader to a crew of misfits.

Taking steadying breaths, you waited for him; to make a move, to answer you, you weren't sure, but you waited. Your heart was slamming in your chest as his head rose, eyes meeting yours.

His eyes roamed down your body and you suddenly realized you were only wearing a bra and panties, but you didn't feel awkward under his heated stare.

"C'mon, let's get you cleaned up in the shower," he said as he held out a hand for you. Your heart sunk, deep into the pit of your stomach, but you took his answer with a grain of salt. Ari held our hand as you two headed to the bathroom.

You stripped of your minimal clothing and got under the hot water. Looking down, you noticed the water begin to turn pink. "Rachel and I cleaned the blood off you as much as could. But there is still some left," Ari spoke quietly as he used a cloth to wash your body.

Watching the water mix with blood made you feel empty inside; numb even. His hands were gentle as he washed your hair, then your body; his fingers brushing gently against your parted thighs where your body craved his touch most.