'Til next year ||Shawn Mendes||

chapter 18

Sorry i had to repost it because a part was missing😅
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Ellie's POV
"So do you feel better? I'm tired of hugging you every ten seconds?" Olivia whined  making me pout.

"didn't you say you'll hug me til i feel better?" I frowned pushing her away.

"Yeah and i regret it. I didn't know you were such a whiny baby" she rolled her eyes making me laugh.

Suddenly a knock came on the door followed by Shawn's voice. I froze in my place, Olivia's eyes focused on me.

"If you don't want to..." she trailed off but i cut her off "I'm fine, let him in" i adjusted my hair a bit before standing up to welcome him.

"Baby!" I exclaimed as he entered. I aproached him giving him atight hug burying my face into his chest mostly to hide my red eyes.

"You were awesome tonight, I'm sorry i didn't but i got tired since I'm not used to being in a crow..." i lied hopefully he won't notice.

"Brian told me everything" he blurted out in a dry tone. I froze sighing letting go of his sides.

"I told this bastard not to say anything" olivia mumbled in frustration sending me a regretful look.

"Olivia can you please leave us alone." Shawn asked quietly as she nodded "and please don't murder Brian" he warned her seriously.

"can't promise anything..." she whispered sarcastically as he glared at her "fine i won't" she threw her hands in the air before hugging me.

"If you need anything, I'll be in the lobby" She rubbed my back soothingly before leaving the room.

I didn't dare to to say a word. I sat down on my bed looking down at the ground fondling with my bracelet. An akward silence settled between us.

"Brian shouldn't have told you" i mumbled blinking a few times to stop the tears.

"Excuse me!?" He raised his voice "I'm a part in this relationship, did you forget? Were you planning on hiding it from me and lying forever?" He ran his hand through his hair.

"It's not important!" I replied quietly.

"Not important seriously!? What those girls told you is terrible! No one should be treated this way!" He screamed making me jump a little frightened.

"Please stop!" I yelled covering my ears  as the fight scene flashed back in my head.

"if you came here to yell at me please leave. I can't handle another argument" my was voice trmebeling, also my hands were shaking as i struggled to breath.

He turned around opening the door, but stayed in his place. I looked away in the direction of the window. After a few seconds, i heard the door closing thinking he left. My heart shattered into a million pieces.

Suddenly i feel a hand on my shoulder. I looked at up at shawn, his eyes were wattery biting his lips hard to stop himself from breaking down.

He crouched in front of me wrapping his arms around me. I rested my chin on his shoulders clinging to his shirt soaking it.

I heard his uneven breathing indicating he was crying as well. I ran my hand through his hair pulling him closer.

"I can't force you to go out with me, you don't deserve this" he broke the silence in a weak voice. I pulled away grabbing his cheeks staring directly into his broken eyes.

"you're not forcing me into anything. I'm willing to go through this with you, i love you" i choked out.

I placed his hand above mine smiling weakly "i love you too and this is why i can't let you continue." He took my hand kissing the back of it softly.

"I don't care about them. I want to be with you no matter what it takes" i cried out desperately.

Looking back a few years, i would've laughed at myslef for crying over a guy i just met. But the stinging feeling tearing my heart apart got me begging without thinking. I don't care about the fans, fuck i don't even care about my parents reaction. I just want him...

"Don't make this harder for me, i can't handle seeing you upset and crying because of me" he confessed.

I sighned. From his perspective, i understand he'd feels guilty about the situation. I'm aware that I'm already dealing with lots of stress but i don't wanna lose him.

Even though we've only been on a few dates. He showed me another way of life, he made me feel secured, loved and comfortable with myself.

No guy has ever looked at me or said sweet stuff to me like he did, i was always the weird nerdy girl but he made me fewl normal. He was special unique, i was so close to call him mine... then here comes the end.

"So you want us to break up" i said deafeated.

"Not entirely" he answered. I looked up at him in confusion "I'm suggesting a year..." he continued.

"A year!?"

"Yes a year.we're still too young, each of us has his responsibilities. You can take your time and adjust to your new home, start college and earn your parents' trust while i finish my tour and release my new album. We'll see what'll happen then" he stared at me with hope in his eyes.

It seemed like a good compromise, each one of us will settle down to his new life until we are ready to share it with another partner.

"But what if one of us falls for another person and start dating?" I asked concerned biting my lips.

"Then it wasn't meant to be" i gasped shaking my head. He cupped my jaw making me look at him directly.

"i don't have a doubt thats this trip is by far the best one I've ever been on. I'll never forget it. You're an amazing girl and I'm so glad i got to know you. Even if things don't work between us and you dated another guy, I'll be happy for you." I sniffed wipping away his tears.

"If we truly love each other, I'm sure we'll find each other in the end" i nodded my head.

"But until then promise me you'll have fun, loosen up and don't pressure yourself. You're wonderful you don't need a man or a degree to prove this, keep that in mind and ignore your parents. Oh most important, don't go with Olivia to a club, i don't want you to wake up next to a stranger, you know how this might end..." i chuckled.

"I promise... and you too have to promise me to keep working hard and acheive your dreams and don't let others break you down and know I'll always be proud of you... and I'm still at my earlier promise if you wanna talk" i caressed his cheek licking my lips.

"I promise... umm one more thing i want you to have this" he pulled his silver necklace over his head.

"This necklace means a lot to me, i never take it off but i wanted you to have something to remember me for. Every time you look, i want you to remember the blast we had here and mostly the love we share" he whispered before leaning for another hug. But this one lasted longer, neither one us wanted to let go.

"Oh by the way i decided to tell my fans about my anxiety at my next show" he informed me a glimpse of pride in his eyes.

"Good for you" i sighed kissing his cheek.

"I guess I'll see you next year" he stood up sending me a weak smile.

"Next year it is" i replied grinning but it soon faded away when he started walking to the door closing it behind him.

A year is a freaking long time but who knows what will happen in the near future?
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Hello guys, thank you for reading so far and i hope you're enjoying it❤ 
So initially i was ending my story here but then i thought it would be cool to write their next meet and see how each one's life develops in a certain way😏 that's why i won't be uploading for a week or so.

Til then how do you think their reunion will be? Will they work things out for good or will it flop again? Does a new person settle in their life or will they stick to their undefined love?🤔🤷‍♀️
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