My Nonexistent Love Story/Skinny Love

#14: Sometimes I try too much

"HEEY. I need you a lot. Do we have any instruction to our biology synopsis? And .. what else has happened? No one was online today. I thought, something had happened. I mean .. maybe you changed your plans about the talk with you-know-who and did that. Because he wasn't online, too."

A bit crazy, right? Well, that was Chantal. As I've already told ya, she had lots of Olympiads and stuff, so she may have missed tons of interesting thing. I don't exactly thing biology was that interesting. But if you don't understand that "hanged your plans about the talk with you-know-who and did that", then I'm here to tell you.

So, the thing was, lately I was thinking a lot about Jason and what should I do about him. Let's pretend he knows. Why is he all shut up then? Waiting for me to talk to him 'bout that? Yeah, that was exactly what I was about to do. Because when Chan said, "He knows you like him, but because of some reason (he's not ready or whatever) he doesn't want anything right now,", I thought that I have to know for sure. So we were all about how and when I should do that.

"Firstly, yes, of course I and Jason were on a date. And the rest were watching us, right (you wish, Caro),"

"Not bad, not bad,"

"Secondly, I'll take my bio notebook with me tomorrow and you can write it down,"

"Ooh .. is it that long?"

"No, I'm just not in the writing mood,"

"Okay, that's comforting, I guess,"

"Btw, you see .. he's online now :D"

 "That's what I was talking about. Oh, right. He doesn't have the instructions, too... I'm totally just sayin' xD"

"Mhm, mhm... Okay, I'll do it then. We haven't talked for a lifetime. Oh .. sorry."

"Ah?"

"You know. I scan it for him and you have to write it down :$"

"I understand, so I cannot be mad at you, okay. A year before you I was just like you. Oo .. thanks for sending that."

"I guess, if I'm willing to scan it for him, I share it with you as well. And, um .. you could send him, too,"

"No, no. You better :D"

"Um .. I'm not sure. It's like: 'How do you know?' 'Chantal told me,' 'Ehm, okay, why would she tell you that?'"

"'Because she thought you'll need that.' And I'm doing that as trying to be good .. partly :D I think you should use that. Really."

"Emm .. okay?"

"I guess I lost you here. Okay. Actually, when we talked the last time he told me he doesn't want me to affect anything. So I'm trying not to .. a bit :D Just encouraging you at times and sharing information you would use, etc. But DON'T .. tell him .. that now,

* Interim comment: Chantal "beat out of me" Jason's MSN and started talking to him there (about me, of course). She told me soon, though. It was peculiar 'adventure' ofc.

I really do like when Jason starts the convos (he hasn't done it recently, though), so I was pretty surprised when he wrote me "hey" (dunno where he lost his 'mornin'(g)'). And then there was "so .. talk" after a second and I went all WTF.

I complained to Chantal and she admitted she 'has a talk' with Jason and how she just a moment ago told him that I really want to talk to him - guess that was because I was torturing her to death with my "oh my god, I'm dying to talk to him" -, so Jason decided I know all that and .. cool, isn't it? *

"I still don't understand anything,"

"Well, me almost either. I have no idea what is he up to. He has two 'things' I actually understood. First, no one must get to know. Second, everything must follow the stream. From which I concluded, he doesn't want me to affect anything. Maybe it was a polite way to say "leave me/us alone". But I'm trying no to get on his nerves. Just in case. NOR affect anything."