DARKNESS WITHIN SERIES 1: THE FEARLESS QUEEN(Completed) Unrevised Version

TDWM30: A SHOULDER TO CRY ON

Jane POV

   Umupo ako sa single couch pagdating ko sa lugar ng pagkikitaan namin.she just sitting on the other couch while eating a French fries,tsk she has this attitude of being childish.

"So?how are you?"she ask habang sumusubo,I rolled my eyes.

"Confused as shit!"naalala ko nanaman ang nangyari kanina tsk,Alam kong sinundan ako ni Xe kanina habang papunta ako dito.

  I Know he can easily track me given na he's a vampire and he can smelled me and also his speed actions,pero mautak ako kaya nalusutan ko siya.tsk

"Tungkol ba ito sa husband mo?o hell J your in trouble"I glared at her,tsk paano ko ba naging kaibigan to?

    Let is just a nick name,kilala nila tan-tan si Let pero sa totoong pangalan. Well what would you expect to me?I made a nick name.ako lang ang tumatag sa kanya ng Let and she just agreed to it.

"Trouble agad?hindi pwedeng magulo lang?"I raised my eyebrows at her,she just chuckled.

"Ok,so ano nga? tumawag ka sa akin na nag eemote? tapos pagdating dito tatarayan mo ako?tsk tsk tsk tsk ikaw na!"pumilantik pa ang mga kamay niya sa ere.

   Napabuntong hininga ako bago semeryoso ang mukha dahilan para matigilan siya at napatingin sa akin Ng seryoso.

"Do you think...."I paused then bow my head "...I'm a bad person?"

"Why Jane? what did you do?"hindi man ako nakatingin sa kanya ay alam kong nag aalala siya basi sa boses nito.

"Sa tingin mo ba masama akong tao dahil nagalit ako sa kanya dahil nalaman ko ang totoo niyang pagkatao tapos hiningan ko siya ng paliwanag pero hindi niya maibigay?"pumatak ang luha ko at alam niyang umiiyak ako.siguradong gulat ang bumalatay sa mukha niya pero nanatili akong nakayuko.

"Nag isip ako ng mga negatibong dahilan kung bakit niya ako pinakasalan kahit na alam niyang hindi ako bagay sa kanya. I never cried before you know it let  but now I'm feel so weak and I can't even see the Jane that I used to know.the positive thinker Jane Madrigal and the Jane who can overcome her circumstances" napahagulgul ako.

"I don't know who I am now Let "niyakap niya ako.

"Can I ask you a question Jane?"I nodded as a response,humiwalay siya sa akin at tiningnan ako.

"Do you love your husband?"

   That question makes me stilled for a moment,then I look away.

"I-I don't know..."

   Do I love him?he said he is my other half,I'm his mate pero sapat naba yun para sabihing mahal ko siya?is it enough to tell that you loved someone just because you are hurting right now? the answer is I don't know either.

   I don't know anything about love thingy dahil ni minsan hindi pumasok sa isip ko ang magmahal,pinangako ko pa nga sa sarili ko na magiging matandang dalaga ako balang araw pero hindi natuloy. Now?I'm clueless about that love. I mean,how does it feels?paano ba mainlove sa isang Tao?

"Figure it out Jane,look. I've never seen you like this, since we became friends.we shared secrets that only the two of us can know and seeing you like this hurts me.yes, you are the one braves person that I know,minsan nga akala ng iba ang heartless mo dahil mas pinapairal mo ang galit mo. Little they didn't know that you still have a weakness Even you, can't figure it out..."she smiled at me  "... and I think you already found your weakness now. I'm proud of you because I know you will be most bravest when you overcome this trials of yours"

   Napanguso ako "why is it?I'm so lucky to have a friend like you kahit na may tan-tan at Lyn ako ay hindi mo parin ako pinapabayaan. I'm so thankful to have you"

"Tan-tan and Lyn is your first best friends so why would I dumped you? you are my friend Jane.nagtulungan tayong itatag ang isang samahang hindi mapapantayan kahit kanino kaya don't say that ha?"tumango-tango ako na parang bata.

"You've change a lot for good and I hope this will last longer, fixed your problem and overcome with this"

   Hating gabi ng dumating ako sa mansion,I know na hinihintay niya ako at hindi nga ako nag kamali. I saw him, sitting at the sofa here in our room.

   Gaya ng dati ay Wala itong emosyon. "where have you been Jane!?I'm so damned worried!I can't even smelled your scent nor track you!so tell me where have you been!!?"he was furious.

     Magsasalita pa sana siya ng mabilis ko siyang niyakap, that makes him stilled. Isinubsob ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya.

"I'm sorry"tumulo ang luha ko.damn! bakit ang rami ng iniyak ko ngayong araw?

"I'm sorry for being a hardheaded. I'm sorry if I say does words. I'm sorry because I doubted you. Pero Xe,I need to know anything.."tumingala ako sa kanya and I can see different emotions in his eyes "...kaya please Xe, help me to know you.help me to know the guy who I marry"

   Tears are flowing from my eyes to cheeks,ang kaninang blanko niyang mukha ay lumambot. He wiped my tears.

"It's hurt seeing you crying because of me"napapikit ako ng halikan niya ang noo ko.

"I'm sorry, I've been an asshole and jerk. I'm sorry"I smiled at parang nawala ang lahat ng bigat sa dibdib ko.

   Now I wonder,do I really love him?or I'm just attracting to him? what ever it is one thing is for sure I'm happy because we're already okay.