We pulled into the hospital and shawn and I ran with the Cart.
We pushed into the hospital doors and ran along side the nurses.
We went with them to the hospital room.
"I love you daddy.." I cried outside of the closed doors.
Shawn wrapped his arms around my shoulder and kissed the top of my head.
I could see them running around the room getting things and bringing them over to a tray.
Another nurse came over and gave us both hugs.
"Come with me, I'll get you situated in the waiting area this may take a while.." she guided us down the elevator, an into the seating area.
"Do you want anything to drink?" she asked politely.
I looked at her name tag.
Katie.
"No thank you Katie." I tried to Speke as fluent as possible.
"Okay just let me know." she smiled and grabbed her clipboard.
Shawn took off his jacket and put it over my shoulders.
I clung to his sleeve and kept on asking him if I had nascar running down your face.
I could tell he was about to burst out in tears because his forehead, tip of his nose and chin were red.
"It will be okay ashlynn it will be okay..."
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But it wasn't okay, you see.
Because here I stood here, 3 weeks later, next to my brother, and my step mom, all dressed in black.
I looked at a tear roll down Shawn's face as I turned back to my dad.
He was laying on his back, stiff. his feet were pointed to the sky.
But he was smiling.
My dad lost too much blood, and broke his hip and almost all of his ribs.
He stopped breathing at midnight that night...
But my step mom didn't cry. she didn't shed one tear. I think she was trying to keep strong for us, it's not really working, because I have mascara smeared everywhere.
I turned to my left an saw Nash standing there in a black suit. his eyes were red and he was sniffling.
His family stood behind him, all in black, with tissues in their hands.
They put the casket into the grave, and covered it.
I love you daddy.
I whispered.
'I love you baby girl'
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Shawn followed me to my room.
I took off my shoes and chucked them at the wall.
"Why! First it was my mom? now my dad?!" I sat down on my bed and clenched my hair.
I was sobbing really hard.
"I just want my family back!" I sat on my bed and yelled. let it all out.
"Why does this keep happening to me!"
Shawn just stood in the doorway and watched me pick things off my desk and throw them on the floor. I grabbed my hand mirror and smashed it against the ground.
"Why my dad..? why'd you have to take my dad..?" I said quieter.
My room was a mess, now.
"Ashlynn," my stepmother said from downstairs.
I walked down with shawn at my side.
"Someone is here to see you.." I opened the door and looked up.
I saw Cameron standing on the lawn with his hands behind his back.
I bolted out the door and ran to him.
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged as tight as I could.
He put his around my back and pulled in tight.
"I'm so sorry ashlynn..." I didn't say anything.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked and I looked up at him.
"I kinda just took my wrath out on my mirror, so I'll be calmer," I true to put humor into myself ever though I was still sobbing.
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Hey guys
Sorry this one is sad.
I actually started to cry writing this.
Ugh I need a mani pedi. badly.
Katemaxy1 was the nurse in the story, I just picked randomly.
But I'm going to sleep now, maybe..
Okay bye ily
-ash
