The Miserable Wife

Chapter 19

Chapter 19:

 

“Noon ko pa gustong sabihin kay Jed na magiging ama na siya…”

 

“Kaya lang nawalan na kami ng communication…”

 

“I know Jed will accept his own son…”

 

“Kung ako sayo, I should stop the wedding right now…”

 

“Get loss in Jed’s life…”

 

“You’re just a replacement of me.”

 

 

I just keep on crying sa loob ng kotse ko. It’s been an hour nang magkita kami ni Amanda at ng anak niya sa mall. I was still at the parking lot ng mall.

Nang makarating ako ng parking lot ay agad akong humagulgol ng iyak. Sobrang sakit ng mga nadinig ko mula kay Amanda. She has her proof… and it was her baby. Which Jed and I don’t have.

It’s been an hour after I gathered my strength again. I fix myself.

Agad akong dumiretsyo ng bahay. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga susunod pang mangyayari. Matagal na kayang alam ni Jed? Does he know that he had a son with Amanda?

Will he leave me?

No… I can’t afford to lose him… I love him so much.

 Ayokong mawala si Jed sa akin… hindi ko kaya.

I just seat at the sofa. Hindi parin mawala sa isip ko yung mga sinabi kanina ni Amanda.

Bakit kailangan pang mangyari ng mga ganoong bagay?

Bakit ngayon pang naranasan kong maging masaya? Bakit ngayong naranasan kong mahalin ako ng taong mahal ko? bakit?

Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako sa kakaisip. I just wake up founding Jed beside me happily watching me asleep.

“You look so tired today.” He greeted.

I smiled as I sit properly. Right now, pinipilit kong hindi umiyak. I can’t let myself break down in front of him. But looking at him smiling genuinely at me makes my heart tears apart. For so many times he had given me pain but this is the most painful thing I could ever imagine.

Jed’s a father now… and the child was not mine.

“Are you okay?” he asks.

I try to smile as I nod telling him I was fine… but I am not. I was deeply wounded.

“Are you sure? You look like you are not okay. Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo?”

“Sort of. Masakit ang ulo ko.” masakit ang ulo ko kakaisip sa mga nangyari.