The Miserable Wife

Chapter 4

Chapter 4:

"She's Leila, my girlfriend..."

Hindi ko alam kung anong ire-react ko. I was frustrated and out of my mind. Hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyayari. All I know is... there is someone who's holding Jed's arms. And it's not me...

"Oh! I thought you are a-- err, never mind. Hi! I'm Amanda! Nice to meet you Leila!" bati niya sa akin, but she did not bent for her hands. Instead, she just wave at me.

My mind was lost. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko...

"So," hinawakan ako ni Patrick sa magkabilang balikat. "It was nice to see you guys here, pero may date pa kami ngayon ni Lei so we got to go. See you around guys!" then hinawakan niya yung kamay ko at hinila palayo sa lugar na 'yon.

"Who's this girl Jed? Do you know her?"

"Sana hindi ka na lang dumating sa buhay ko... edi sana yung babaeng mahal ko ngayon ang pinakasalan ko. kung hindi dahil sa'yo... hindi ako magkaka-ganito..."

Ang daming thoughts na sumsagi sa isipan ko. Naninikip ang dibdib ko. Tila hindi ako makahinga. I didn't realize na tumigil na pala kami sa paglalakad ni Patrick.

"I'm sorry for what I've said kanina Leila!" pagpapaumanhin ni Patrick. I was just looking at him. He looks so worried at me.

Unti-unting napuno ng luha yung mga mata ko kaya tila nanlalabo na ang paningin ko.

"I'm sorry Leila..." then he hug me. I can't stop from crying. Kanina ko pa kasi gustong umiyak.

Ang ganda na kanina ng simula ng umaga ko. Bakit babalik nanaman sa pagiging miserable? Why do I have to be hurt like that? Will I never be happy?

Will I never be happy loving Jed?

After kong maka-recover sa mga pangyayari, Patrick lead me back to my classroom. I already stop from crying... but my heart is still in pain.

Nasa harapan ko ngayon si Chester at Charlotte. Tahimik na nakatingin lang sa akin. Masaya akong nandito sila sa tabi ko at alam kong may kaibigan akong masasandalan sa mga ganitong pangyayari... like he was before...

Hinawakan ni Charlotte yung kamay ko at ngumiti. Hindi ko na napigilang lumuha ulit. I was in such deep pain right now. I really don't know how I will be going to be okay.

If I can chose whom will I love... I guess... I'll never gonna hurt like this.

"He was... back then... my only friend..." I cried

"He was the only one who's there for me..." I added.

Way back on my childhood days, I've been bullied by my classmates.

Dahil hindi ako pure Chinese. I've been experience bullying then, my classmates were all Chinese—pure Chinese. They always look at me like I was never belonged with them. Sa isang international school ako nag aral na kung saan puro Chinese students ang nag aaral. Mabibilang mo lang yung hindi Chinese. They we're accepted there due to the influence, power and money that the names of each child brought them.

I was one of those children...

I was called the bad luck in our family. Hindi kasi ako pure Chinese at anak lang ako sa isang Filipina. My mom died after she gave me birth. I never got to see any picture of her. Pangalawa ako sa aming magkakapatid na babae. We have an elder brother. I was the only one who bares the half blood. They were all pure blood. Though I'm different to my brothers and sisters, they treated me as their sister. On the contrary, my Grandmother (my dad's mother) looks at me as an outsider. My grandma says that I'll bring bad fortune in our family.