This upcoming week is going to be horrible. I have the week off because my gpa & mom & Josh & Lance are all going on a cruise to Mexico & I was SUPPOSED to go to New Mexico to visit a friend, but of course with my stupid hospital bill for my cardio echo exam I didn't have enough money to buy ANY kind of transportation ticket for yesterday, so I'm stuck here in San D, with Thomas & my lack of friends to do stuff with and all my depression. This was supposed to be my out, my way to clear my head & let go of everything that's holding me back.So I'm forced to stay here in my messy, claustrophobic apartment & cry my eyes out.
On Thursday night I seriously SOBBED before meeting while I was in the shower. And to top it all off Thomas looked freaking the hottest I've ever seen him. Ever. And I just had to sit there & watch. And I want so badly to just talk to him! So he can help me through all this keep my head & so that I can see how he's doing & help him & comfort him if he needs it. He text me the other day when I sent him something on purpose accidentally & said that he feels like no one likes him & they'll him even less after everything. I hate it whenever he feels like that & I wanted to reassure him that no one knows & so they all don't hate him & I still feel the same way about him & always will. Ugh.
And I still can't believe that I'm not two states away right now. No matter WHAT, now I'm gonna' be hauling butt to go to New York with Bre in April. [Never happened. Still haven't been to NY.] I HAVE to get of here. FAST. All I asked for was a week vacation! Why was it so hard to get that!? Ugh!! And I know exactly why it didn't work out: I had to pay for both Paloma & I's ticket to DisneyLand that one month & I used some of my travel money, which turned out to be exactly how much I was short to buy a ticket. So now I'm SO determined to not spend money on stupid things that require me 'borrowing' from myself. But I'll let you know how things go this week.
I was supposed to go up to Lake Elsinore today so David could teach me how to drive a stick on his car, but it would've been just us 2 & I don't need to be alone in a car with boy right now. So that didn't work out. And Bre text me to say she went to the ER last night & spent the night & all of today in the hospital with a mild case of pneumonia & asthma attack. So tomorrow I'll swing by her house & drop off an It's A Boy balloon for her hehe. I still owe her for that lol. [When I went to get my cardio echo, Bre bought be an 'It's a Girl!' balloon & everyone in the hospital thought I was prego.]
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The Diary Project 2-Relationships
Non-FictionRane's almost out of high school and she's already out of her first relationship. How will her newly budding friendship with Thomas fare? And will she be able to hold her life together as she moves into the newest phase of her life?
