Quinn Fabray: My Story

Chapter 5 - Keep Holding On

 Practices had been going on without a hitch much to my relief. Everyone seemed to know to stay tight lipped about my secret to Coach Sylvester which was a relief to me.

That afternoon I had my appointment for my first sonogram. It was a little nerve wracking, especially since I didn't know what I should expect. I had gotten into Finn's car that afternoon. He was supposed to drive me to the appointment. "Are you okay?" I asked as Finn seemed frozen at the driver's wheel. "I don't know," he said nervously. "Maybe we should ask someone to drive us," I offered as Finn nodded. We saw Mr. Schue walking out of the school. "I'll ask Mr. Schue to take us," Finn said as he walked out of the car. I took a deep breath. Having Mr. Schue at the appointment would be interesting. After all I was considering giving the baby up to the Schuesters.

Mr. Schuester drove us to the appointment. We waited silently in the waiting room. I was filling out the paperwork. Since it was my first appointment at the obgyn I had to fill out the new patient paperwork, filling out things like my full name, address, phone number, etc. I took deep breaths trying to keep my nerves under control. Finally the nurse walked out calling "Quinn Fabray?" I got up as did Finn and we walked into the room.

"I'm freaking out," I whispered nervously as Finn held her hand. "Everything's going to be fine," Finn assured me. "Relax, at your age there's very little chance of anything being wrong," the technician told us. "Awesome," Finn smiled at me. I was still concerned. I wanted to make sure this baby was healthy. "It's going to be a little cool to the touch," the technician said as she put the gel on the sonogram.

"Could you just be careful of my uniform?" I asked nervously as the technician huffed. I knew I would be a dead person if my uniform got ruined. "Alright," the technician said as she put the tool down by where the baby was going over my stomach. "Speaking of your ages, have you given any thought to what you're going to do after the baby's born?" the technician asked. Truth be told I had been thinking so much about what I was going to do with the baby. I knew giving it to the Schuesters might be the best option but after what had gone down with Terri, I didn't know how much I wanted my baby to be raised by her. Then again, Mr. Schue was so wonderful to all of us in the Glee Club, especially how he took us to the appointment today. 'The baby will be okay. Mr. Schue will make sure of that.' I told myself. "Whatever Quinn wants is fine," Finn smiled at me. "Well, if it makes a difference, it's a girl," the technician said.

A girl. I was having a girl. I think in that moment this baby became so real to Finn. I could see his eyes light up. Him looking at the sonogram, knowing she was his. He felt a duty to protect her. I couldn't help but feel guilty for how much he was taking this upon himself for a baby that wasn't even his. Finn kissed my hand as I looked over at him. 'I need to make things right somehow' I thought to myself looking at Finn. My thoughts were interrupted by the technician. "We need to talk to Quinn alone, if you could just wait outside," she said. I couldn't help but be nervous. "I'll be right outside," Finn assured me as he kissed me quickly before waiting outside with Mr. Schue.

"Okay Quinn, since you're pregnant we need to give you a pelvic exam. Have you ever had one before?" the doctor asked as I shook my head. "Most patients should usually start once they've begun having sex," the doctor explained. "Oh...I didn't know," I said. "It's alright," the doctor shrugged as she began the exam. I couldn't help but feel uncomfortable during the exam. I jumped a bit as the doctor touched down there. "Relax. This is just standard," the doctor explained. I took a deep breath, glad when the exam was over.

"I need to ask you a few standard questions," the doctor said. "Okay," I said, feeling a bit uneasy. "You're not in an abusive relationship are you?" the doctor asked. "What? No," I said shaking my head. How could anyone look at Finn and think he would ever be abusive?