Endless Tears in Every Heartache [Completed:2016 ]

Chapter Fourteen

I decided to travel. When mom and dad asked what happened, I just stared at them and cried asking them to allow me travel. I need to find myself.

Dinala ako ng aking mga sariling paa sa mataong lugar. I have been in Boracay a couple of times. And usually whenever I need to focus myself, this is where I go...kahit maraming tao. I want to hear noise whenever I felt like I'm the loneliest person in the whole world. It lifted up my feeling. It lessen the sadness...although right now, my heart's still aching, so bad na kahit gaano karami ang tao rito ngayong araw ay hindi ko sila marinig.

Those laughter's, I cannot even hear it.

Natauhan lamang ako nang may lumapit sa akin habang tinuon ko ang aking atensiyon sa buong lugar tanaw ang karagatan. "Your beauty must be shown in the whole world." A lady wearing pink floral top, pink shorts and a pink hat said. She extended her hand and gave a calling card to me.

Tinanggap ko ang calling card. I realized she was from an entertainment industry, she was a manager and a talent scout. Kumunot ang noo ko. "I have no plans in entering showbusiness." It's not really my thing. Yes, I can act, dance and sing, but that was for my school only. I'm a member of our dance troupe and drama guild club. I have done singing lessons when I was a kid. But that was out of my hobby, I have no plans on showing it to the whole world.

"Sweetie, you can still think about it." She smiled sweetly at me dahilan upang muli akong mapatingin sa calling card niya. I realized she was actually from a top entertainment company here in the Philippines.

The whole time, I was holding her calling card. I didn't see this one coming. Bakit ako? Anong mayroon sa akin? Honestly this is not my first time receiving  a thing like this. I have decided before that I have no plans on entering showbusiness. My life is all about Allain, and that was before. Things changed now...

I dialed her number. One, two rings and then she answered my call. "Hi sweetie, I knew you'd call." She said again in a very sweet tone of voice.

"I'm considering your offer." Ani ko tsaka napabuntong hininga. I know I need this. This is another chance for me. My life isn't about Allain anymore. I also need this for myself.

"I'm glad you do, sweetie. When do you want to start the training?" Nag-isip ako, I'm still on a vacation, maybe this is really a good chance.

"Perhaps next week po. Babalik na po ako sa Manila." I bit my lower lip.

"Okay then, sweetie... You don't know how excited I am to work with you. Malayo pa ang mararating mo." My heart skipped a beat. This is my only escape.

I had my first workshop as soon as I came back from Boracay.

"Malapit nang sumikat ang baby ko." Natawa ako kay mommy ng yakapin niya ako. Naglalambing. Bata pa lang ako ay pinangarap na niyang pumasok ako sa mundo ng showbiz. "I hope you're happy with this sweetheart, I'm not pressuring you okay? But when you told me about this, I am truly the happiest." Tumango ako kay mommy.

"I am happy mommy. I need this. I badly need something like this." Nanggigilid na naman ang mga luha ko.

Hindi ko lang matanggap na hindi na ulit nagparamdam sa akin si Allain, if I'm that important to him, he will find a way back to me.

"You're not escaping, are you?" Natigilan ako sa sinabi ni mommy. "I don't want you escape from the pain sweetheart, I want you to fully recover from pain by being happy, maybe not now...because sweetheart it's okay not to be okay." That's when my heart felt the pain again, I started crying again.

When will I ever stop crying for that heartless billionaire?

"Mommy..." Niyakap ko si mommy. "Ang sakit-sakit po kasi...ang sakit-sakit..." Patuloy lamang siya sa pag-alo sa akin. "Am I not good enough? Am I not worth fighting for?" Napahagulhol ako habang iniisip kung anong mali sa akin.