Trigger and Bullets

bullet 20 - after the masquerade

These scars are from the wounds I had

when I was soft as a rose petal

... deep and never be forgotten.

 

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Bullet twenty

"I swear, I swear, I will give you the most painful death when I get out of here!" I hopelessly pounded my fist on the back of my door. Katahimikan lamang ang nakuha kong sagot sa likuran ng pinto. I pounded hard again. "Hindi niyo na gugustuhing huminga pa kapag nakalabas ako rito!" Isang malakas na suntok ang binigay ko sa pinto. By then I knew kung gaano kasakit ang kamay ni Ella sa pagsuntok sa pinto ng Emergency Room. Inipit ko ang aking kanang kamay sa pagitan ng aking mga hita. "IT FvCKING HURTS! I WILL REALLY KILL ALL OF YOU!" nanggagalaiti kong sigaw, my voice cracked and faded on the last part---a testimony that I had been shouting my lungs out for the last couple of hours.

Nang mabasa ko ang mensahe ni Mommy ay walang alinlangan akong nagdesisyong lisanin agad ang compound. It was still about two in the morning and I badly needed some human moments but I forgot everything when I read her note. I forgot every darn thing, even the pains that had consumed me when I was at the hospital.

And now it was all coming back!

"I'LL BRUTALLY KILL ALL OF YOU!" muli kong banta habang hawak pa rin ang namimilipit kong kamay. Sinipa ko nang malakas ang pinto, that made me crouch. I was still in my boots so my stupid toes absorbed all the shock. Isinuklay ko sa aking magulong buhok ang kamay kong walang injury. "YOU ARE ALL FIRED!" sigaw kong muli.

Kanina ay nasa gate na ako ng compound gamit ang isang takas na sasakyan and just a few minutes away from her kaso nagka-isa yata sina Hades at Loki---well, these FDI guards all looked like Hades and Loki, kaya ang mga galamay nila ay nagkumpulan sa tarangkahang aking daraanan. Someone had shot magnets on my car that forced my car locks to open and when those useless locks did I was carried like a sack of potato and jailed in my unit. Kautusan daw ni Zeus na huwag akong palabasin ng compound hanggat hindi niya binabawi. See? Hades and Loki conspired to give me hell, and Zeus was their God. I'll kill Zeus first, then... then I'll burn Hades and Loki. Masasakatuparan ko ang planong ito kapag nakalabas ako sa aking unit---which was hopeless at this point. My door was locked outside!

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang binabalak at iniisip ni Zeus. Whatever it was makakatikim siya sa akin. I extremely wanted to meet my Mom, determinado akong suungin lahat makita lang siya.

I run to my window at sinukat ang layo nito mula lupa. When my eyes landed on the ground I saw  dozen of men looking up on me.

 

Bloody hell?

Mukhang hindi ang pagdaan sa bintana ang paraan para makatakas dito. Pati masyadong mataas ang kinalalagyan ng unit ko kaya hindi talaga maaari. Ayaw kong malumpo. Kung may malulumpo ay si Zeus iyon. Wala siyang karapatang ikulong ako sa sarili kong bahay! Will he blow off my face the dangerous means I did to save the effin slvt---no sorry for my word, I loved hating her even more now. Balak niya bang interogahin ako agad tungkol sa mga impormasyong nakuha ko sa silid kung saan ko nakita si Margareth? Oh give me break! At nasaan na ba siya? I was willing to punch his face now.