Thoughts as Poetry

Hesitance

When I poured my heart out to you, it showed my complete trust,

I didn't know until then you're existence is a must

Talking about that past gave me an eager heart,

And soon love exploded before it was meant to start

It gave me a surge of anticipation;

I thought you'd be callous,  it's why I had such hesitation.

Excuse me if I'm wrong, tell me if I'm right,

But I feel you slipped away one night,

This is so unreal,

How uncontrollably I feel,

The stinging in my chest won't go away,

And frankly I'm unsure of how long it will stay.

I'm afraid that no matter how hard I try,

My love will never be enough for you and I,

You said maybe one day, but that isn't definite or set,

It makes me anxious, curious, as confused as one will get,

I'd turn to you to settle the churning inside,

But you're causing it this time, so I'll just swallow my pride,

And say it straight out, though I've done it before,

Each day I love you more and more.

This affect you have is almost to much to bear,

Makes me lighter, turns me to air,

Its hard to bring myself to say this all,

Without feeling like I'm going to fall,

I don't know what's worse; the pain in my chest of the dizziness in my head,

One more word and the ecstasy will make my as good as dead.