Thoughts as Poetry

Dont Know What To Name This

I cried again

I messed up just one more time.

(I've been doing that a lot)

I used to be so strong,

So much less vulnerable than this

But now only "weak " fits.

Him- He thinks I'm strong

He thinks I ought to be proud

Of my ability to resist (he knows who he is)

He, however, makes me feel weak

Not because he hurt me (that I'm over, that I understood)

But because he's so soft, so kind, (to me) he's always my support

I appreciate him, need him,

In a way you wouldn't understand (I don't get it either)

But all it takes to feel better is to know he exists

Is this wrong? To be so dependent?

I once was strong, better off alone,

But now I have a tendency to seek out someone else.