Suicidal Journal

Journal #4 Shattered Heart

Broken. He broke me. I never thought it would happen, but it did. It took me years to build a wall around my heart. Within five months he torn it down then he left me with an unprotected. He ruined me. I'm lost now. I don't know why he did it. But he just did. I wonder if it was my fault. Did I love him not enough? He made so many promises and broke them all in a heartbreat. I was stupid enough to believe them all. I am even more stupid to believe he will come back to me like he'd promised.

I was okay that we had broken up. I actually got over it because he promised me we'll get back together. Then my heart was shattered. He pretended to care about me . He pretended to act as if there was still hope for us. He had told me it had nothing to do with her but then he goes and dates her less then a day later. He told me he loved me. Its unbelievable how fast his feelings changed. I believed he would be my one and only. My love forever. He told he'll always love me. It was all lies. Every word was a lies. I can't believe I was so stupid to believe all them. I had felt safe within his arms. I had felt like the world was perfect when I was him. My mind has become confused. I have no hope left in my life. There's nothing to keep me going.