Just What I Needed

Just What I Needed (60)

- Just so everyone knows, I posted Seth's story, it's on my profile under About A Girl! -

Pacing back and forth, Keely crossed her arms tightly in front of her chest, chewing on her lip anxiously.

The air felt rather constricted in her throat, and her heart was beating too quickly against her chest. Love. There was no way she was in love with anyone. Maybe there were different degrees of love, because she was sure in the first boyfriend way she had loved Tony in some way.

It didn’t bother her as much anymore, the cheating and the fights, with him. She was just certain that she had no feelings for him, he was just a big mistake that most girls had to make at one point it seemed. He was nothing more than a person that she’d be willing to be friends with if she ever saw him again.

Yet she couldn’t say when it had happened, when she’d finally absolutely forgiven him for everything. Because she couldn’t pinpoint a moment when the change had come, it had been a huge insecurity for her and now it was just… gone.

And the thought didn’t even bother her much.

It was Colton assuming that she was in love with Seth that had her in such a worried mess of a person.

Because she was a mess. Keely was just short of trembling as she paced, thinking about what was said and what truly was. Yet her thoughts were racing around her head so fast she couldn’t make sense of them, just getting a jumbled mess of contradicting thoughts. She knew what she felt for Seth was different from anything she’d ever felt before, but if she was in love, she would know before anyone else.

Anyways, loving him would be impossible. Well, not impossible, but it could only end in someone being very hurt. And that someone would be her. Because as much as she wanted to believe she meant something more than the friend that had forced him to tell her about the past, that was all she thought was a rational assumption.

Groaning in frustration, she tugged on her hair lightly, her thoughts almost making her dizzy from the speed.

If only she had someone who she could lay all the thoughts out with, just pour everything out and get unbiased advice. Maybe not unbiased, but she just needed a friend that she could talk this over with.

Her first thought of who she could talk to would be Seth, but that was pointless since he was the one she needed to talk about. Then there were Colton and Marco, but they were Seth’s best friends first and foremost. There was Marissa, but Keely didn’t know if she could talk about something like that with her, let alone over the phone. Jenny, but the same problems that applied to Marissa were current there, their bond just wasn’t strong enough for her to be able to pour out her soul.

Of course, there was always Joseph, she could talk to him about anything. Yet, she couldn’t speak to him comfortably about boys. Because whenever she spoke to him about Tony, his only response was assuring her that he would punch the other guy in the face. She could talk to him about everything except boys.

But there was Haley.

If she was to talk to anyone about a boy, she could speak to Haley. It didn’t matter that it was over the phone, it was her best girl friend.

Hesitating for just a moment, Keely stared absently at the wall. She was supposed to be at the party Maureen had ordered her to go to over two hours ago and even if she left right now she would maybe make it for her set. Not to mention she wasn’t even dressed in the gorgeous silky dress that was laid across her bed.

In fact, she wasn’t even close to being ready to go to this party. Instead her hair was mused from countless times of her running her hands through it in frustration, she was wearing a pair of worn in ripped jeans and a white Rolling Stones shirt. To say she was a mess was beginning to seem like an understatement.