Hey guys, sorry i didn't update Wednesday, i was grounded.
" Justin!" I screamed running out of my mom's grip too Justin's body that lays there without moving one muscle. I fell to his side, the whole world seemed to be spinning around me. I could barely see threw my tears, i sniffed grabbing Justin's hand. " I love you." I couldn't even tell if he was alive or dead. " Lina .." Justin started. He was talking, he was alive. I quickly moved my hair that fell in front of my face whipping my tears away. " I was wrong.." Justin held my hand tightly, but not as tight as he usually does.
" I thought Lina, that, that ..." Justin started to drift away from me. " Justin! stop, stay strong baby." I kissed his forehead. Justin's eyes slowly opened again looking into my eyes, " We were going to live.." Justin slowly blinked, He lifted his other hand and put it on the top of my head. " together, forever. But.. I'm wrong."
" shh, Justin. You're going to live. You're strong!" I said while lifting his other hand that i was holding to my lips slowly i kissed his hand. " I'm weak, I'm weak without you." He was silent for a minutes all i heard was gasps and sighs of relief that Justin could be gone in the matter of seconds. " Get married Lina, have kids. Because i want you too, I'll love you ... forever." Justin closed his eyes. I no longer felt the soft breathing, no air was coming out of his mouth or nose. I was screaming inside, i was shaking, crying. Justin can't be gone he can't. " Justin! Wake Up!" i screamed pushing his body around. " Wake up!" i screamed over and over again. He's just sleeping Lina, i kept telling myself. But he's not. " wake up.." i said threw my crying and shaking lips. " please." I was hoping that a something magical will happen and he'll be awake. I didn't get to say i love you back.
He died in my arms, like he wanted too. I gently put my hand over his non beating heart. " I love you Justin." The fact that, he'll no longer be with me. Tell me he loves me, he'll no longer kiss me, he'll no longer hug me, he'll no longer smile at me, he won't make me smile. We're in the horror movie. Who's going to protect me when i want to kill myself again? At this point all i want to do is kill myself be with him again.
I looked at his beautiful face, he was dirty, cut up. His eyes no longer shinned in the sunlight. I bent down and kissed his soft lips that were ice cold and started crying at the felt of it. they'll no longer be heat coming out of his body. " No, no..." i said slowly at my thoughts. My hot tears started falling from my eyes. Justin's hand that was on my head was getting heavy, and cold.
" Come on sweetheart." My mom came over to me and tried to lift me up. I stood up tears pouring from my eyes. I saw them put Justin on a bed, covering his face with a sheet through blurred sight. They carried him away there was a white piece of paper laying next to where he died. Walking over I picked it up. It was a note that said " Dear Lina." on the front.
I put the piece of paper in my pocket sitting in the back of my mom's car. My mom started driving away from the scene- the murder scene. We got home and i instantly ran to my room to cry even more. Getting up off my bed i ran to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Touching my hair, i remembered Justin buying scissors, cutting my hair off. It grew back a few inches. My hair was now down to the end of my shoulders. I smiled, My hand roamed down to my neck, where I felt a hick's Justin left the night before we left. The flashback of us sitting there making out, It was hot.
I ran my fingers threw his hair as he sucked on my neck, He started biting, sucking. After that feeling he looked me in the eyes then said " Now when we leave each other, the other guys will fuck off because they now know you belong to someone."
This thought made my eyes water, one tear fell from each eye. My fingers went back up to my lips, where he kissed my there every second he could kiss me. Our first kiss was what got me, under the waterfall, where he told me he loved me. Running my shaky hands too my stomach, i can still feel him kissing down my stomach, every inch, he stopped to the bottom of my stomach looking back up to me to make sure he was alright. As i nod yes to him.