Tia left the prom already. I saw her exiting the premises and I found myself wondering where she went. It's not my business, I know but I wanna know. Pakiramdam ko kasi ay may ginagawa si Tia na lingid sa kaalaman ng lahat. I just want to know so I can tease her about it.
The prom was a bit boring for me. I was just sitting on my corner watching my classmates as they danced the night away. People were asking me to dance too, but I don't want to move a muscle. Pakiramdam ko kasi ay walang kwenta kung gagalaw man ako. I don't like this event. Pumunta lang ako para maisuot ang gown na binili ni Mama para sa akin. She bought the gown from Paris Fashion Week and I could already imagine her reaction kung sinabi ko sa kanya na ayokong magpunta talaga doon.
I wanna be somewhere else...
I wann be away... with that one person who can make my heart beat faster and faster and faster... Iyong tipong hinihingal na ako pero kinakaya ko dahil masarap sa pakiramdam na kasama ko siya. I want to be with that person.
I wanna be with Perseus Vejar.
I know that what we have was forbidden. But I want this. Forbidden dahil close iyong family ties namin. Forbidden dahil tinitingala an gaming mga pamilya sa lipunang ito. Forbidden dahil first degree cousins ang Mama ko at Mama niya – forbidden dahil second cousins kami and I read from somewhere na ang tanggap lang sa Pilipinas ay ang third degree something like that – forbidden because if people find out, marami kaming masasaktan and yet...
I just can't stop.
I still couldn't explain how we started. Panay lang siyang kasama ni Kuya Hunter – actually tatlo sila, si Ino at si Percy. Panay silang nagha-hang sa bahay kahit na si Percy ang pinakabata sa kanilang tatlo ay isa naman siya sa pinakamagulo.
He got accelerated when he was just ten years old – genius siya tulad ng pinsan naming si Ate Artie, Telulah at Liv. Kaya kahit na mas bata siya sa amin ni Tia ng isang taon ay nauna naman siyang mag-aral. Nasa Grade 9 na ako, si Percy ay Grade 12 na. He's about to graduate this March and from the looks of it, makakakuha pa siya ng scholarship sa pinapangarap niyang mga Ivy League School.
I am very proud of him...
Kaya lang kasabay noon ay ang pag-aalala ko na baka tapusin na rin niya ang kung anuman ang meron kami. We never label what we have. We kiss, we hug, we make out and sometimes it becomes pretty intense na nakakalimot kami pareho but there was always a thin line of self-control on our part.
Noong una ay kinakain ako ng guilt pero nitong huli ay natatakpan na lang iyon ng kasayahan at iyong kagutuhan kong makasama siya nang matagal but these past few days were different. Sabi niya ay hell week daw sa Senior High kaya wala siyang oras. Hindi ko aman na initindi. That last decent conversation we had was almost three weeks ago...
I missed him.
"Haley, can I have this dance?"
Bahagya akong nagulat nang makita ko si Theo Calimbao – the son of the former President of the Philippines – standing in front of me, asking me to dance with him. Napatawa ako pero nakadama naman ako ng kahihiyan – hello, anak ng dating President ang nasa harap ko – kaibigan pa naman ni Daddy Yto ang Dad niya kaya inabot ko ang kamay niya at nakipagsayaw sa kanya.
The music was a bit of romantic. We needed to move closer to each other. Inilapat niya ang kamay niya sa baywang ko. Ang isa naman niyang kamay ay nasa balikat ko. I am very shy but I felt like I had to wrap my arms around his neck and sway as the music fills the room.
