Dear Mama...
I don't know why I am writing you this letter. I just found myself inside Hades'office looking for a piece of paper and a pen. I wanted so much to talk to you. Mama ang bigat-bigat na ng kalooban ko. Hindi naman nagbago ang dahilan, wala ka na at hanggang ngayon napakasakit.
Hindi ko nga alam kung ilang beses kong hiniling na sana nandito ka sa tabi ko. I wished for you to meet my kids, to meet my husband and to discover how much of a good person he is. I want you by my side mama. I would kill for anything o have you back. I would even kill Helios if that's what it would take for me to have you back ---but it's too impossible. You have passed n and we all have to move on without you by our sides.
And every night for the last five years of my life, I cry because your not with me. I imagined myself having you by my side 'till I am 85 --- lahat yata ng anak ay ganoon ang gusto. There was never a moment in my life when I didn't wish for you.
Alam mo, last night, I was watching Hades as he teaches the twins to tie their own shoes and I just found myself crying. Bigla kong naalala iyong nakatayo tayo sa living room while watching Papa teach Hermes and Ares. You were holding my hand. And then, I remembered the moment when you were teaching me to tie my ribbon -- I then, imagined myself teaching Tia the same thing and I cried, mama, because I didn't even had the chance to take a picture of you and my Tia.
Mama, if things are simpler, I promise I'd be good, just please come back to me.
Wala na akong kakampi sa mundo. I only have you, you are my best friend, my rock, my strenght. Mama, please visit me in my dreams. I had been wanting yo dream of you since you left, and five years later, I am still waiting for you...
Mama... mama... mama...
