Dear Diary

~21st October 2013~

Yesterday was pretty stressful.

As for the people who read all of the comments on the last chapter, I was on a real low point the day before, and I still felt extremely down yesterday. Part of it was because of my home life, and about 90% of it was about going to Spanish.

I know it sounds really petty, but those lessons freak me out and I dread every single one of them. There's people in there who, I feel, are way too smart and I'll be honest, they intimidate me with how good they are. I'm not knocking them down or anything. If anything, it's great that they're so amazing at it. I just wish that I was that good. I don't even compare to them.

When I got home, my step dad didn't end up shouting at me at all. Instead, my mum was angry because my sister and I were having a laugh and we'd woken her up. Baring in mind that this is at around 6pm. While I was having dinner, she ended up getting into a row with my sister because she doesn't want to go to sixth form or university.

My point of view is that if she wants to go to university or anything else, then let her. If it turns out that it's the wrong thing to do, then that's her fault and then she'll have to deal with the consequences. At the end of the day, she's got to learn from her mistakes and forcing her into doing something that isn't right for her is the wrong thing to do. She'd end up not paying attention in class and failing her A Levels. I'd sooner have her come out with a qualification, rather than flunking all of her exams.

So anyway, after that, and my mum getting all angry at the pair of us, since I told her to let her get on with it, we ended up spending the night in our rooms. The pair of them weren't in a good mood, so it was the safest thing for us.

We ended up getting told off later on, because we ended up doing homework until 9pm and didn't have time to get a shower. That didn't go down well at all.

I suppose my night got better by talking to my friends, and I spent a lot of time speaking to you guys. In all honesty, I can't thank you enough for your support. It has really helpped me, and I know that none of you can do anything about my family, but I appreciate every message I get and every ounce of support.