Real Life

16.

I woke up sweat was all over my body and a arm was slung over my back that's when it hit me I was naked oh my god I jumped up and grabbed a long sheet and wrapped it around me

Matthew was still asleep the small sheet that covered him only showed his back and there were light pink scratches on his back I checked the apartment no one was here I looked out the balcony it was dark I checked the clock it was only 11 I grabbed a pair of sweats and Matthew shirt was that hanging up in the bathroom I turned and looked at myself in the mirror I could have screamed

I had a huge purple hickey on my neck and smaller ones around it " oh my god " I said I hurriedly dressed and woke Matthew up when he sat up I gasped he had hickeys all over his chest and neck his hair was a mess

I threw his clothes to him and walked out of the room into the living room I sat on the couch he sat on the love seat in front of me " so um " Matthew said " we had sex " I said " we had sex " Matthew said " oh my god " I said " wait you don't regret it so you " he asked me " of course not " I said he came over and sat down next to me " then what's wrong " he asked " was it ya know good " I asked embarrassed looking down he took his hand and placed it on my chin and made me look at him " it was the best " he said I blushed deeply and kissed me not a lust filled but it was passionate and affectionate

I heard the front door open and everyone walked in with there eyes covered " IS IT OK TO LOOK YOUR NOT NAKED RIGHT " Em yelled " it's okay to look " I said laughing " DAMN TALK ABOUT NOT HAVING SEX " harry said running over to Matthew cocking his neck " oh damn maybe I should take a turn " David joked Matthew glared " or not " he said we laughed " well those are some good hickey hey shelb why don't you give me ones like these " harry said Shelby just rolled her eyes " look at the damage Matthew done to her " Kat said moving my hair I'm pretty sure I was blushing really hard " stop it " I said pushing there hands away " karma can you come here please " Shelby rang out " and the rest of the girls " she added I got up and walked with the girls into my room " so you took out advice I see " she said my face was red hot and I tried to hide it

The room was a mess there was pillows everywhere , a busted candle , a used condom , and the sheet was messed up I started to clean up the room when the girls headed out Matthew walked in and started helping me

" how did we even break a candle " I said laughing " I don't know I guess we just have some wild sex " he said laughing I stood and started laughing really hard I don't know why but I just fell to the floor laughing so hard I seen Matthew take a picture of me laughing he stood there watching me smiling " how did I get so lucky " he asked I soon stopped laughing and stood up and hugged him

" your hugging me " " yeah I know "

" why " he asked " because it seems like we just have never had a full hug it out moment and this is it so don't spoil it " I said

We sat there a moment hugging I could here his heart beat and for those couple minutes it hit me the feelings I have for Matthew they just overwhelmed me I know I say I like him but I love him and it took me nine months to realize it

I stopped hugging him and looked up " what's wrong " he asked " for nine months I have battled on my feelings for you don't he me wrong of course I like you and theres a feeling I get when I'm with you and we had sex beside the point , Matthew daddario I love you and no the sex didn't make me fall in love with you it was you , it was even when we " I air quoted broke up " broke up and went out to the club you watched over me and you took me home and cleaned me up , you punched a guy in the face for me I'm not scared when I'm around you because I know I'm safe your my safe haven and when I look at you I'm home " I said laughing at the funding nemo quote " and I don't care if another guy hits on me i only care about you and you only oh god I'm inlove with you Matthew I love you so much " I said

He was crying , not an ugly cry but he had tears in his eyes " in the twenty eight years I have been alive I don't think I have loved anyone has much as I love you " he said kissing me

We and stood there kissing it was absolutely perfect

And it made me realize what Matthew really ment to me and how I really truly do love him and everything about him to