Real Life

4.

The months I spent with Matthew was like at amusement park your so happy when you arrive and through it but when you leave your chest feels empty I knew him for six months now but it felt like years it's been the best six months of maybe my life but when I look at myself and him I wonder why.

I woke up Matthew wasnt on the other couch we haven't slept in the same bed ever be stayed at my place once in a while or I'll stay at his trailer on set I've met the cast and I'm such good friends with them there so caring and funny I'm pretty sure dom scared me more times than I can count me and harry clicked he stays on Fridays sometimes  but since he's married he stays at home with her they have been trying to have a baby but no luck I pray for them sometimes his wife is so sweet and funny

But back to the couches my neck killed me I sat up trying to rub it and stretching Matthew was shirtless he walked from the hallway " sorry i took a shower " he said i could feel my cheeks buring fire " it's fine " I said

I couldn't take my eyes off his abs his sweats were hanging off his hips a bit and there was water still on his torso a bit and his hair when I met his eyes he was smiling " like what you see " he said I was so embarrassed I leaned my head back but whined " are you okay " he asked " yeah I'm fine " I said " my neck is killing me " I said he motioned for me to sit on the floor in front of him

His warm hands hit my skin he was touching me so softly scared he might break me I tried not to moan but oh my god his hands were like gods ( THERE STILL ON HER NECK )after about twenty minutes  once he was done I thanked him my neck still was soar but it felt much better

He went and got ready and walked out on his phone

" well I should go I have to go and shoot I'll be back later or are you coming over " he asked me towering me looking down at me " I don't know , just text me " I said he nodded and leaned down and kissed me on the cheek " bye " he said " see ya " I said standing on my toes kissing him on the cheek he walked out

I went to find Lola " lolaaa " I sang " here baby baby baby " I said she was laying under my bed I pulled her out she looked sick I carried her in the living room and poured food and water but she wouldn't touch it I tried treats and ham nothing

Maybe she was just feeling upset I left her on my bed and cleaned the house I texted Julia and Alexis seeing if they wanted to met Alexis was at work but Julia could I met her at Starbucks " hey " I said pulling her into a quick hug she was wearing her ring I smiled " so how is it " I asked " I'm pregnant " she said my eyes about popped out of my head " what " I said she shook her head " yeah , only a couple months though maybe two or three " she said " I'm going to be an aunt " I cried in joy " does Hayes know " I asked she nodded " he's happy , I was scared at first but now im not this is what I'm waiting for all my shitty life I'm glad we all stayed together " she said " me to , I'm happy for you " I said smiling " so has Matthew put a lable on it " she asked " no , were I don't know where were going or what it exactly is " I said sighing " hey , if you have to make the first move then go for it " she said I nodded " so from a birdy by birdy I mean my brother he said that you got into Florida " she asked I sipped my tea " yeah , but you know how I feel about collage " I said " I know I know , I love Colombia it's great " she gushed " have you talked to josh , he's thinking about doing it online he could help you " Julia asked " no , how is he and Taylor and what about Nash how old is he " ( these are real people this is my best friends family  Julia's  , also julia and Alexis are real also ) " there good , there still married " she rolled her eyes and I giggled " yeah Nash is good he's ten almost eleven " she said " do they know about your baby " I asked she nodded I smiled her phone started to buzz and I went to throw my trash away my phone started buzzing like crazy I pulled it out not watching where I'm going bumping into someone " oh my god , I'm so sorry " I said " no I'm sorry " a guy said he was tanned and very well dressed he was around my age I'm sure " hi " he said laughing I laughed to  " I'm Spencer " " karma " I said Julia walked up to us " ready " she asked " yeah , bye " I said we walked out " who was that " she asked I shrugged and kept walking we made it to my apartment " are you coming in " I asked her she nodded

I plugged my phone up and started looking for Lola " uh karma " Julia said in a worried voice " what " i asked she showed me her phone it was a picture of me and Spencer laughing and the caption was @karmthecharm is she really cheating on @Matthewdaddrio my eyes widened and my heart dropped when I seen his name flash up on my phone