I'm not the one who wants to hurt you Billdip fanfic. [BOOK 1]

Chapter 4

Dipper's p.o.v

As we walked through the forest I couldn't help but think. 'Can I trust him? I just met him and we're already acting like friends' I said mentally. Then the bitter part of me awoke. 'Of course you can't trust him. He's gonna betray you just like everyone did in the past. Even your own sister betrayed you. You never did anything wrong to people but they still found a way to hurt you. It's dangerous to be near them' it said. I let out a soft sigh as I could see Will staring at me. He looked puzzled. "Dipper are you okay?" He asks out of the blues. "Like really okay, like everything is okay and all?" He continues. "Why? You think I'm not okay?" I ask looking down. 'I can't let him know all my problems, he will leave me alone like everybody else did' I said to myself. He sighed. "Uh I um never mind " he said. I mentally sighed. "So, how's school going?" He asks after awhile. 'Can I tell him that I'm as invisible as wind? Or that I hate going to school because of the people in there? That even the teachers think there's something wrong with me?' I thought. "Dip! Dipper! Earth to dipper!" He said waving his hand in front of my face. "Yes? What can I do for you?" I asked. He had a concerned face on, like if he knew there's something wrong with me. "I was asking how's school going for you" he said as he puts his hand on his hips. "Good" I simply said. "How 'bout you?" I asked. He sighed. "Well, it's cool but the only thing is that almost every girl in the school is crushing over me and that I get into fights a lot because I have a big mouth. If I have something to say, I'm gonna say it." He said as we began walking again. I just nodded. "I hope you aren't an homophobic shit" he muttered under his breath. "What? You think I'm an homophobe? I'm gay Will, I can't be homophobic" I said in a matter of fact tone then I slapped a hand over my mouth. I didn't mean to say it!!!! I mentally screamed. "Oh god I'm so relieved that I'm not the only one" he said as he hugged me. I didn't know what to do. 'If I get to close to him, he might betray me, if I push him away, he might find me rude' I thought so I just let go and hugged him too. "Wanna be my best friend?" He asked smirking. I laughed. "Aren't we already best friend? You're hugging me and not a lot of people have this privilege" I said as he let go of me. "Right" he said and laughed. I couldn't help but smile. 'You're already friends with him? I thought you knew better Dipper. He's gonna betray you in one way or an another' a voice said in my head. I frowned and shook my head. I couldn't let them win over. Without thinking I began to run. I had to take my pills but I can't in front of him. I heard him call after me. I hid and took out my bottle of pills, I took two in my mouth and swallowed. When I got up, I saw Will near me but I began to feel dizzy. Before I knew it I went unconscious.

Bill's p.o.v

As we walked through the forest, he kept thinking if he could trust me. But I also heard someone else saying that I would betray him like everybody else did. Okay so two things are cleared; he's schizophrenic and have trust issues. The voices inside his head kept singing that he can't trust anyone; they'll betray him and you know the drill. Anyways, as we walked I couldn't help but think. 'Is it because of me? Is it because of how I used him in so many ways? Why people betrayed him for whatever reason?' I thought. When he was younger, I kept playing him tricks, making fun of him and all. It was only because I didn't know how to express my feelings for him. I kept thinking until I decided to ask the question. "Dipper are you okay? Like, really okay, like everything is okay and all?" I asked but I mentally slapped myself. "Why? You think I'm not okay?" Of course he would respond something like that. I sighed. "Uh I um never mind " he doesn't want me to know, he thinks I'm gonna leave him alone like everybody else did. I'm not like them, I may be a dream demon but I love dipper. So after awhile I decided to speak up. "So, how's school going?" I asked. I was trying to change the topic but I only made it worst for him. "Dip! Dipper! Earth to dipper!" I said waving my hand in front of his face. He zoned out when I asked him how school's going. "Yes? What can I do for you?" He asked and I couldn't help it but my eyes were telling him that I knew there's something wrong with him. "I was asking how's school going for you" I said as I put my hands on my hips. "Good" Was what he replied but I knew he was lying. If you're observant, you can clearly see that he's lying. "How 'bout you?" He asked and I sighed. 'Stop trying to change the subject pine tree, I know you too well' I thought. This kid really thinks he can outsmart me. "Well, it's cool but the only thing is that almost every girl in the school is crushing over me and that I get into fights a lot because I have a big mouth. If I have something to say, I'm gonna say it." I said and he nodded. No but seriously, I don't like girls, after I turned down all the ones who asked me out they should take the hint. "I hope you aren't an homophobic shit." I muttered under my breath. Yep, I'm gay and some people doesn't accept it but I don't want to beat Pine Tree up because he's an homophobe. "What? You think I'm an homophobe? I'm gay Will, I can't be homophobic" He said in a matter of fact tone. Damn this kid has all I love. When he understood what he just said, he slammed his hand over his mouth and mentally screamed. "Oh god I'm so relieved that I'm not the only one" I was so relieved that I hugged him. I was even happier when he hugged me back. I then got an idea. "Wanna be my best friend?" I asked smirking and he just laughed. "Aren't we already best friend? You're hugging me and not a lot of people have this privilege" He said and I smiled. He was so perfect. "Right" I said and he laughed and smiled! His smile is beautiful and his laugh his melody to my ears. But of course the douche in his head had to wake up. I frowned and looked at him. He began to run. It's been the second time he does that. We're not in Cinderella so there's no reason to run off like this. I ran after him but he hid. I kept yelling his name so he would come out. After tree times of telling his name, he got out but as soon as he did, he went unconscious. I teleported myself to catch him before he falls on the ground. I snapped my fingers and we were in my cabin. I noticed he had a bottle of pills in his hand. He stills have it. I took the bottle from his hand and when I read what was written, I knew he would have to answer my questions.