Why? (Destiel Highschool/College/Coffee Shop AU)

Chapter 7

Castiel's P.O.V.

It's been almost a week since i've seen dean, he hasn't come into Ellen's for 5 days 

and that makes me extremely worried

what if hes planning on how to kill me?...

he not going to kill you!!...

what if hes avoiding me?...

well it's better then hitting you right?...

i don't know...it feels worse...

i wish he would just punch me and get it over with...he never did that though...

why would he hug you if he was going to punch you?...

honestly, i have no idea...

then stop talking to yourself and actually look at the door because there he is!!

dean comes into Ellen's looking normal, except for the bags under his eyes

has he not been sleeping?

i felt a little bad, because what if i was the cause of him not sleeping? 

why would he not sleep cause of you? he doesn't care about you!!...

maybe...

oh shit!! hes coming over here!!... 

Dean's P.O.V. 

(( Back to when cas told him about what happened in middle school))

i couldn't believe what i was hearing...

castiel?!? cas?!? my  cas??!?! 

all the things we went through...

we were best friends, i loved him...as a friend

oh yeah...but...

oh god...all the things i did to him

theirs no way he would want to see me

but i feel so friggin bad

all i could think of doing was hugging him

so i did

he was hesitant at first 

but after he realized i wouldn't let go, he hugged back a little bit 

i couldn't look at him as i let go, 

i didn't know what else to do 

and i was too shocked to say anything 

so i just walked out 

i needed to clear my head 

over the next 5 days i have been having non-stop dreams about cas

some were dreams that I've had before, nightmares of me hitting and yelling at him

i then realized that some of them were flashbacks of what i actually used to do to him

but then there were other dreams that i used to have when i was in middle school, 

i remembered it as soon as the dream started 

*Dream ((SMUT WARNING))*

cas comes up to me and snakes his hands around my waist pulling me closer

kissing my jawline and moving his lips to my ear

nipping a little at them, making my breath hitch