Why? (Destiel Highschool/College/Coffee Shop AU)

Chapter 10

Dean's P.O.V. 

"LEAVE HIM ALONE!!" I yell at the kids picking on Cas

but they didn't hear me, like i wasn't there

this feels like a dream 

it's...weird...

i see my younger-self getting picked on

the teacher orders cas and i to go down to the principles office

while whispering to us that we were disgusting

at the time i didn't understand anything that was going on

i didn't know it was bad to kiss boys 

and i didn't know cas was going to kiss me

not that i wasn't thinking about it...

i remember exactly what i was thinking at this moment 

i have to protect cas

and there was only one way i could think of doing it

pushing him away 

and that's exactly what i did

the kids didn't bother us again

but our friendship was ruined...

and i have asked myself ever since

was it worth it? 

i stand there behind my younger-self and younger self

getting a lecture from our old principle 

he was a dick 

and i hated him, the way he talked to us

the way he talked to cas...

i hated reliving these moments

i spent 4 years of my life trying to not think about those things 

pushing it deeper and deeper into my mind

i wanted to get out of this

but how? 

how do i get out

why is this happening?!?

CAS!! 

please...

help me...

I need help Cas!!!

I need you...

Castiel's P.O.V. 

"Dean's in a coma" 

my heart stopped beating for a second

like i just died 

then came back to life

but at this moment i kind of wish i haven't come back to life

this was all my fault 

i did this

i brought these memories back to dean 

i made him go into a coma

i was about to cry 

but i held it back 

i couldn't cry in front of sam

this is probably worse for him then it is for me

but then again it feels like my chest has just been stabbed and my heart was ripped to pieces