Castiel's P.O.V.
"you can't love somebody else, if you can't love yourself first"
well that's bullshit
i have never been a big fan of myself
i would never say that i "love" myself
but dean...
i loved him, i really did
i shake my head as i close the book in my hands
no wanting to replay last weeks incident
*flashback*
"YOU LEFT ME REMEMBER?!" i say shouting at him
a tear falling down my face
he wipes a tear from his eyes
"i'm sorry cas, b-but we could fix this-" he says putting his hand on my shoulder
"IT WAS NEVER BROKEN DEAN!! REMEMBER!?!...we're not together anymore..." i say looking at the ground shaking my head
how did it get this bad between us?
i miss dean
i really do
but i can't help but be angry at him
i just can't
he sits their hunched over and crying
i couldn't do it anymore
i just walked out of the room
i left
just like he did to me...
*flashback over*
i look around the quiet dorm room
dean left for the morning
i was hoping he would be gone most of the day
that's pretty much how it went
either i was home all day and he was out
or he was home all day and i left
it's a little hard considering we both don't really have a lot of friends
we don't know anyone at this school besides each other
and besides when we have classes together
we try to avoid each other at all costs
i could still hear his heartbreaking sobs
and a lot of the times i wish we could've talked about it
but we don't we avoid each other
even though we are roommates
we both tried to change it, but we couldn't
guess that was karma for messing with Karen
i didn't have any classes today
and i'm guessing dean didn't either, considering it's almost 12:00 pm, and he's still sleeping
he has all morning classes, so he can have the evening and night to study and whatever
i know cause that's when i have time to myself
in the morning
when he leaves...
i look over at his sleeping body
remembering all the good times we used to have
as kids
as teens
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Why? (Destiel Highschool/College/Coffee Shop AU)
FanfictionNerd!Cas and Bully!Dean Castiel Novek and Dean Winchester were the best of friends, but Castiel did something to Dean that made him hate Castiel since 6th grade. Then Dean moves away and they meet again 4 years later in a coffee shop, they are both...