You Can't Hide From Your Past

Thinking...

Sory guys this is gonna b really short but I wanted 2 give u something.

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But in the back of my mind the thought was still there:

Did I still love Derek Ramirez?

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Chapter 19

***Athena's POV***

After Xavier dropped me off at home I realized that I had a lot to think about.

Xavier is my mate.

Xavier is my mate.

Xavier IS my MATE!

I kept saying it over & over but everytime that question came back to me.

What about Derek?

GOD! I hate Derek!

If he wouldn't have come back into my life none of these questions would be in my head! I would be with Xavier and I would be more happy that anyone in the world!

But no. DEREK has to come back and FUCK everything up!

I started crying again. I swear I have cried more times in the past year and half than in my ENTIRE life!

"NO!" I said out loud hoping that maybe that would push the thoughts out of my head.

"I love Xavier!" I yelled at myself.

Then I went back to sobbing.

Xavier is the first person in a long time that can make me smile and make me feel special.

But the bad part is that the person that could do that before was his cousin. The man who beat me. The man who made me work for him. Derek. 

Before he started showing his bad side he was sweet, kind, funny and a whole bumch of other great things.

When he wrote that he loved me something inside me came out. It was something that had been forgotten long ago. It was the way I used to feel about Derek. The love I used to have for him in the beginning of our relationship.

I hadn't heard him say he loved me since then and it felt good to hear him say it but it didn't make me feel the way it did when Xavier said it.

Then it really hit me.

WHAT WAS I THINKING!

I LOVE XAVIER!

I don't know why I was thinking about Derek. I don't know why I was confused.

I needed to see Xavier.

I got up and left my house and drove my car to his.

I pounded on the door and it couldn't open fast enough.

When he opened it I jumped on him and started kissing him.

He didn't miss a beat, he started kissing me back with just as much passion as as I did.

Before I knew it we were in his bedroom and he was putting me down on his bed.

I started undressing him and I was almost done with his shirt when he stopped me.

"Babe, whats going on?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well, did you just come to have sex? Cuz thats not really like you." He told me while giving me a suspicious look.

"I love you." I told him as I looked into his eyes.

That did it. Thats all it took for him to kiss me again.

He kissed me as he started removing my clothes.

Pretty soon we were both naked and  Xavier looked me in the eyes.

"I love you, too Athena."

And then we were off.

He was inside me and everything else in the world other than us and our love melted away the instant he entered me. And for the rest of the day we were all that existed, we were in our own perfect world. And thats how I wanted it to stay.

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Sorry again for the short chapter but I'm getting a little bit of writers block. :(

I know where I want the story to go but it is how to get there that is troubling me.

I hope to get the next chapter out next week.

Again sorry for the short chapter.

Wish me good luck with getting rid of the writers block! :)

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