Full Figured Woman. (Revising Slowly)

Look What You've Done.

Jada Michaels

I Was Officially Dying..

Giving Up, On Life. On My Friends. On My Job. On August.

Living Here With This Psycho & His Little Amigos Were Starting To Slowly, But Surely Kill Me.

I Haven't Been Eating A Lot Lately, I've Lost A Drastic Amount Of Weight, Say 70 Pounds.

I Only Speak, When Spoken To, I Have Nothing To Say To Anyone.

I Do My "Wifely Duties" Everyday: Cook, Clean, And Fuck Kamry.

I Want To Die, The Feeling Of Defeat Is Surely A Motherfucka'.

I Still Dream Though, I Guess That's What's Been Keeping Me From Slitting My Throat Every Morning With The Sharpest Knife Out Of A Set Of 8.

August Probably Moved On, Not Even Thinking About Me Or Where Am I, Since Those Bastards Left Him A Falsified Note On How I Mysterious Banished To Some Secret Location.

Total Bullshit.

A Months & 2 Weeks, & I'm Just Ready To End It All.

Maybe, It's Better Off For Me.. & The Seed That Has Been Planted Forcefully Inside Of Me.

~'

"Aye, Kamry Man We Got---" Cameron Busted Into The Room As I Laid There Crying, As Kamry Quenched His Thirst For Me. Cameron Stood Up Straight Folding His Arms Over His Chest. I Closed My Eyes & Cried Harder, The Feeling Of Embarrassment Came Over Me.

"Stop All That Damn Whining.. You Know You Like This Shit." Kamry Said, Eyes Closed Focused On Pounding My Walls Out.

"Kamry!" Cameron Said, As I Looked At Him For Help. He Just Looked Up At His Brother Instead.

"Damn, Baby You So Tight." Kamry Grunted, Speeding Up His Strokes, Telling Me At Anytime He Was About To Cum.

"Kamry!" Cameron Stepped A Little Closer, Still Trying To Get His Brothers Attention.

"Ugh, What?" Kamry Groaned As He Released His Fluids All Inside Of Me. He Looked At Me For The Answer, But I Hadn't Said A Thing.

"Kamry." Cameron Stern Voice Spoke, Making His Brother Jump Up & Out Of The Bed, Holding His Member In His Hands. I Pulled The Covers Over Me Sitting Up In The Bed Slowly.

"What The Hell Are You Doing In My Room?" Kamry Said, Looking Around For His Briefs & Some Basketball Shorts.

"We Have Business To Discuss, The Guys Are Waiting Downstairs For Us. Let's Go." Cameron Spoke, Clenching His Jaw. Kamry Sighed & Nodded.

"5 Mins." He Said, Cameron Nodded & Turned To Walk Out. I Looked His Way & Saw Him Take A Quick Glimpse At Me. His Eyes Held A Little Guilt In Them. He Just Turned Back & Walked Out The Closing It Right Behind Him.

"Babygirl?" I Looked At Kamry, As He Sat On The Edge Of The Bed.

"I Want Waffles, Eggs, Bacon, & Fresh Squeezed Orange Juice." He Said, Stretching His Body. He Got Up & Came Around My Way, Sitting On The Side Of Me.

"You Look So Beautiful In The Morning..." He Muttered, Grabbing My Face Gently. I Closed My Eyes, For A Second To Look Back Into Kam's Big Brown Eyes. I Remembered How Much I Loved These Sentimental Moments We Used To Share As Kids. He Was Always That Comforting Soul That Made Me Feel Safe, When I Wasn't Feeling To Sure Of Things. It's Sad That Now I See Him As Nothing, But A Monster.  

"I Love You." He Smiled, Wiping His Thumb Over My Moist Plump Lips.

"Love You Too." I Muttered. He Got Up & Made His Way Into The Bathroom. I Got Up Slowly, Still Sore From His Rape Session. It Was September, Now It's Late October & Fall Is Starting To Turn Into Winter. I Put On Some Boyshorts, Sweatpants, My Black Moccasins & A Tight Fitting Tank Top. I Made My Way Down The Steps Slowly, I Saw The Group Of Men At The Family Dinner & Kameron Sitting In The Living Room Laughing It Up. I Walked In, Trying To Get To The Kitchen. All Of Them Froze.