The days passed by quickly and I really tried to actually overcome with my last situation. It didn't last long, but left deep scars in my fragile heart. It was in the morning, I guess around 6 a.m., I woke up from a nightmare, I sat on my bed and was frightened, small tear drops left my eyes. As the time flies I watched the sun rise up and light up the room. I would have laid back, so did I, under my blanket I would hug my pillow to help myself, but I caught myself crying over it again, I shouldn't have done it, it was way too risky, I didn't want anyone to notice it, because I knew if I do too loud, and they catch me crying, they would judge me for being weak, so I remained as silent as it was possible. Hours passed by and I had to eventually get out of bed.
The day was cloudy and rainy, the clouds were grey, it looked bit of humping, just as it was describing my feelings. I would get up and go to eat breakfast, but at the moment, all I wanted was going back to bed and sleep again. I could hardly pick myself up to start my day. I would check my phone over and over again. Nothing happens, he is gone, he is never coming back again. After a while, I got all my strength together and forced myself to eventually get up and start my day. It was somehow really hard but I did it. I would go downstairs and ask my parents what we are going to do today, well that's exactly what I did today. I would get in the car and go to different shops, to get the materials for the process. I found it boring, it's not like I hate doing it, it was just really unnecessary thing in my life, when I knew my heart was heavy. I picked up my phone for the last time to check on my notifications, but again, no change. I would redownload the app to see, if I will have the chance to meet new people, people who will eventually stay with me and won't leave me after I told them how I feel and what kind of situation I was in. I waited for a few hours. As the time passes I needed to get ready for going to the new apartment again and continue working there, painting, fixing a lot of things and renew the kitchen too. It felt an eternity though. I went to listen to some music, when all out of the sudden I got a notification. I hoped for that he would come back still, but he didn't, it was the notification from the app. I got a lot of new request but I only accepted two of them, that I thought would be worth trying again. So I opened snapchat to check if they added me back or not. They indeed did and started talking to me like I have known them for years. The one would use only snaps to talk to me the other one would chat with me like a real person. I'm not sure why, but they would talk to me nonstop. Raheem. Yeah I think that was his name. He would talk to me as if I was his girlfriend and would call me in the cute nicknames, like lovers do. I don't know why, but I felt really uncomfortable around him. Every single day, he would act as if we were together. I don't get it until this day why.
'Good morning bae. It's another day and I get the chance to talk to you, plus see your beautiful face'- he snapped me with that message on.
I tried to ignore the words, that made me feel uncomfortable, so as normally a person would do I said:
'Good morning to you too. Did you get some rest?'
'Yeah I did my love, how about you?'
He acted like this for days, I still felt uncomfortable, I didn't want to fall in love ever again, in addition I wasn't ready for a relationship neither and I didn't even loved him in the first place, so I don't get it. I'm not sure why, but I after my first, I never wanted to feel broken and ripped apart. I was really scared to do. I don't know how long I let it bother me, but he kept on texting me nonstop, if I didn't answer after a second he would call me a lot of times, but actually I never picked it up. I didn't want it. I was thinking about blocking this person. It became more and more uncomfortable and felt really pushing. He said things to me that would sound as I was forced to love or be with him. I felt disgusted. One day, in the morning when I woke up, I took my phone to my hands and checked my notifications, who texted me and all out of the sudden when I opened snapchat, I got a message from that strange guy, who thinks I'm in a relationship with him. He texted me a paragraph and it goes like this:
YOU ARE READING
The Forbidden Love
RomanceA romance between two beautiful souls. They fell in love, everything goes perfectly and is like they are living their dream. Every day feels like if it is just a fairytale, perhaps what could go wrong?