Tears

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I know a lil someone who has been waiting for this chapter for a little while now ;)

I know it's not a Conan song, but I've been getting super into Måneskin recently and If Not For You is going to be used in this chapter because it just fits. This song describes what Conan is to me. It's beautiful. 

"If not for you, I wouldn't sing anymore/ If not for you, I couldn't get off this floor/ If not for you, hell would be knockin' on my door/ If not for you~"

Tell me your top 3 Conan Gray lyrics! This is serious guys! Obvi, not I just wanna know and judge you as people based on your lyric taste lol:


Translations:

Watashi no on'na no akachan= My baby girl

Si, senor= Yes sir

Mi amor (If you are on Wattpad and STILL don't know what this means- and I mean this in the nicest way possible- that's just pure sad.)= My love

Unko atama= poop head (I'm so mature)



Knocking on his door, I swallow back a mouthful of an entire day's full of anxiety. The sun is setting now, the sky painted pinks and oranges and at the top, a dusty blue. I hear him yelp a little, but then there are fast-paced thuds and the unlocking of the door followed by a squeak.

"Baby!" he flings himself at me and pulls me into a massive embrace, squeezing me tight. His arms don't seem to know where to go, caressing me and squeezing me tight. He's inhibiting me from breathing, but I don't mind, squeezing him back. He presses a line of kisses from the base of my neck up to my jaw, causing soft giggles to escape my lips. 

"Somebody's excited to see me," I chuckle, "That's nice for a change."

"I was so anxious all day," he admits, "But I don't know why I was so anxious. I think I was just nervous that you wouldn't like my surprise. It's all adrenaline now that you're here though!" he holds his hand out to prove his point, and it's shaking. 

"Conan, you're gorgeous, you know that?" I sigh, cheeks hot and my heart feeling swollen in a way that only Conan or intense happiness manages to make me feel. He looks embarrassed, and instead of replying, he leans in to kiss me. It's intense and slightly sloppy, but it still manages to send me to somewhere best described as heaven. I kiss him back, gripping his shirt intensely. 

"Come inside baby girl," he smiles affectionately, still holding me as we awkwardly clamber through his doorframe. He leans me up against the wall and straightens up a little, putting a small distance between us that I close by wrapping my arms around his neck. He sighs deeply, his soft brown eyes never leaving mine once, not until I look down. 

"Oh shoot! You're dressed up!" I notice. He's wearing a neat, black button-up dress shirt and neat black jeans. Suddenly, my green blouse and leather cargo pants make me feel underdressed, even with my necklace and little star hairpins that I found at a vintage market this morning, "And I'm severely underdressed!" 

"No," he sighs contentedly, closing some of the distance between our faces. His eyes lock onto mine again, a cloud of pink creeping up his cheeks, "You're perfect~" 

He kisses my neck gently, slowly working down towards my collarbones, giving me kitten licks here and there that make my head tilt back further each time. He straightens up, grasping my hand in his and chuckling to himself.

"So, what's my surprise?" I ask impatiently, and he shakes his head,

"You'll have to wait and see. Close your eyes!" He commands, and I obey him. He pulls a blindfold over my eyes and ties it slowly. 

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