Love & Affection

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Bria POV (4.12.14)

Jenny: "Give me more smoke baby."

I inhaled deeply & blew out o's. I got into this modeling stuff.. But it's nothing serious. I've only done 4 shoots. But so far, I've been getting hit up left & right. Ion know how they get my number but whatever.

And since I know yall nosy asses wondering, I haven't talked to August since that night. I will say that I've cried so much in the pass month that I'm just about outta tears. I just got outta my lil depression funk. I haven't really talked to anyone.

Its just me, Agnes, & my money lol. I still do photoshoots for other people & teach. I do a lot lol. I try to keep myself busy cause ion like crying & whenever I'm home or have too much time to think... I cry.

Jenny: "And that's a wrap baby."

I nodded & walked off set. I went to change outta my clothes then headed out. I went home, got my stuff then put Agnes in the car. I promised Amanda I would come up there for her. I dont want to but I keep my promises. So I guess it's just me, the rode, & Agnes. I didn't wanna fly, only cause I needed time to myself..

August POV *later*

Amanda: "You not staying?"

Me: "Nah, ima head out tho. I see yall later."

Amanda/Kirk: "Aight."

I got up & walked out, just in time for Bria to be at the door. We made eye contact, but I looked down.

Me: "Excuse me."

She took a step back & I stepped out, letting her in. I made my way to the car, but turned back around.

Me: "Aye... Jace!" She looked back. "Come hea'."

She hesitated before meeting me.

Bria: "Yes?"

Me: "I...." I paused & sighed.

Bria: "August, what are you asking me? Or telling me? Why would you just let me go? You made it clear you didn't want to be with me, so what do you want? Just ask me what you wanna know. Why is that so hard?"

Me: "...Why can't I stop lovin' you? Why can't I stop thinkin' about you? Why can't I stop bein' angry wit myself for endin' it wit you? Why can't I stop?"

Bria: "I can't answer that, August."

Me: "Look, I know what I said abo-"

Bria: "I'm tired. Can we do this later? I'm sleepy & if I keep listening to you, I'm gonna cry. It's no hard feelings Aug. You did what you had to do. I just gave up, said goodbye & kept it moving. We good."

She turned & started to walk off. I sighed..

Me: "What if ion want good?" She stopped. "What if good isn't good enough for me? What if I want happy with you? Or great."

She turned around & I wiped her face.

Me: "I'm scared.. Just as scared as you are, but I know what I want. I want you. Nobody but you.. I gotchu. I don't wanna think bout your presence. I wanna be in it. And I prolly sound like a complete fool but i don't care."

Bria: "August.."

Me: "Lemme finish, you mean a lot to me & I figured it out but after you left.. To say I want you would be a lie.. Because I need you. I don't sleep.. I don't eat.. I can barely think-"

Bria: "Aug.."

Me: "I'm almost done. I know I have a couple issues but I'll figure something out. As long as you have my back-"