Lost and Found

47. Only you

Rudrayani's point of view

I had locked my room. I had locked myself inside. I wanted to see noone.... I wanted to be alone with my broken heart. 
I had told payal to leave me alone. She was not ready to let me be... but I somehow told her to give me some time.

I felt so little... whenever those images of Ranvijay with ruchi flashed in my mind...new tears made their way down my cheeks... I couldn't find my voice after this.... i could even had a heart to let out a sob. I just kept crying silently like i had been doing all these years.... i just locked myself in a small corner of this huge suite. I had curled myself in a small ball to be away from every thing. I sat there on floor crying my eyes out hugging my knees to my chest.....

now I think I might have swollen eyes and red face with all this crying. all I could do is curse myself and my heart for falling so hard for a boy who doesn't even want me. I didn't know Why do I love Ranvijay this much...

I was drowning in my own sorrow. I was feeling my whole heart was shattered. But I couldn't even complain about it....

I heard a knock on the door. But I didn't move from the place. Instead I hugged my knees more tightly hiding my face...
But then a loud shatter came and my door was broken...

That loud boom made me look up, only to find a very angry looking Ranvijay. My heart clenched in an unknown pain when i thought Ranvijay belongs to ruchi... i could not take that pain .... so i decided to avoid him..I hurriedly stood up and started to leave the suite.

But Ranvijay grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards him. I collided on his chest. I tried to push him away but he simply snaked his arms around me in a tight hug.

"Leave me Ranvijay..."
I said in a hoarse voice after my crying.... That crude voice surprised me.. all this crying was really taking a toll on me..

But Ranvijay stood there holding me tightly. I was getting impatient. I tried again to push him. But No use. I looked up to his face, he was looking at me closely. He had anger written on his face.

But my heart was pounding like crazy in my chest with Ranvijay's proximity... oh... I wanted to stay here with him for eternity... but I thought ...he is not mine... ruchi was the one... Ranvijay belongs to her... not me... my heart pained like hell. Every passing minute my resolve was weakening and I wanted to surrender to Ranvijay and just stay right here in his arms. But how could I snatch Ranvijay from ruchi... this won't be right...

"Please leave me Ranvijay,.. why are you doing this...  why are you here even.... you should not be here right now.. i .. umm yo... you... you should be.. ar.. you should be with ruchi"

My voice was breaking when I reached till my last sentence. I no longer can hold up to this... I cannot... I wanted to melt in Ranvijay's hug and run far away from him at the same time.... my inner turmoil was showing on my face.
I was now trying to loose his grip on me by pushing away his arms around me....

But suddenly I felt Ranvijay to lean close to my ear. His masculine cologne invaded my senses..My body betrayed me when i felt a shiver ran down to spipe. Ranvijay sensed it. He scoffed and He nuzzled at my ear and said in a very threatening voice,
"And why would I be with ruchi, princess?"

"Umm.. ur.. I..  mean... that ... "
Came my intelligent reply. And then My mind had turned into mush when I felt a tender kiss on my neck..
My brain was trying his best to formulate a sentence. But lost when another kiss landed on my ear...

"Yes, princess ... I am listening... say.. what you were saying...why should I be with ruchi.. Humm?"

I was feeling light headed with all this continously thudding of my heart and Ranvijay's proximity. ..